You cannot have Faith without having Hope.

We have some big changes coming in our family and I'm not just referring to a new baby. 

Without being too personal since this is, in fact, on the internet, 

I need somewhere to share this so that I don't forget it. 

We are about to take a big risk as a family. 

The biggest risk we've made in our entire marriage and I'm scared!

Mostly because I am such a control freak. 

I have such an intense need to control everything in my life, 

and with what is about to happen, 

I have to let my control go, and put more faith in my husband. 

Tyson is an incredible husband and I trust him more than anyone else. 

However, because of my personality, it's hard for me to just let go and not have an incredible anxiety attack in the process. 

I've been praying, getting advice from others, reading scriptures and reading talks on lds.org to help me with this and while I was reading a talk by elder H. Bruce Stucki of the seventy, I came across the scripture Moroni 7:33 

 33 And Christ hath said: If ye will have faith in me ye shall have power to do whatsoever thing is expedient in me.

and then I kept reading: 

37 Behold I say unto you, Nay; for it is by faith that miracles are wrought; and it is by faith that angels appear and minister unto men; wherefore, if these things have ceased wo be unto the children of men, for it is because of unbelief, and all is vain.

 39 But behold, my beloved brethren, I judge better things of you, for I judge that ye have faith in Christ because of your meekness; for if ye have not faith in him then ye are not fit to be numbered among the people of his church.

 40 And again, my beloved brethren, I would speak unto you concerning hope. How is it that ye can attain unto faith, save ye shall have hope?

 41 And what is it that ye shall hope for? Behold I say unto you that ye shall have hope through the atonement of Christ and the power of his resurrection, to be raised unto life eternal, and this because of your faith in him according to the promise.

 42 Wherefore, if a man have faith he must needs have hope; for without faith there cannot be any hope.

I'm so grateful because I feel like this has helped me so much. 

Tyson was talking to me a few months ago about how faith and hope go hand in hand and these scriptures reminded me of what we talked about. 

I've been such a pessimist about this new path we are taking. 

I have been so convinced and certain that something will go wrong, 

what we are talking about is too good to be true, 

and have had a hard time believing that the good that will come of this is really going to happen. 

I've played through every worst case scenario in my head and focused on those and stressed and stressed about them. 

After reading these scriptures tonight, 

I have realized that I need to have more hope. 

I need to give my worries and stresses to the Lord,

and I need to have more faith that it's going to work out. 

It's going to be SO hard to do, 

But I know it will be good for me

plus,

it will be a great learning experience regardless of the outcome.

New Job

Our lives have been so crazy these last couple of weeks.

It all started a couple of months ago though. 

Tyson had been contemplating about whether or not being in the HVAC business was really something he wanted to do as a career or not.

He went back and forth A LOT. 

He talked about multiple different things and just couldn't decide.

One day though we were talking about it and we came to conclusion number one:

Whether he wants to go back to school to do something else,

or stay in Refrigeration and hopefully one day maybe start his own business,

he needed to make more money.

What he was making at the time, met our needs EXACTLY.

We weren't struggling to pay our bills,

but we also weren't making enough to put really anything in savings...and that's if he was working overtime EVERY. SINGLE. WEEK.

I would get frustrated because there would be times where I'd see him maybe 4 hours in a WEEK,

yet the money he was making would go right towards bills and we wouldn't get to have any to save or play with.  My husband needs a break man!!!

Also, if he wanted to go back to school, he wouldn't be able to work overtime which would mean we'd need a way to make up for the difference in income.

So after a lot of talking about it,

we decided that him finding another job that paid him better would be best.

Incredibly (but not surprisingly. My husband is kind of amazing.)

the first place he went to, he got and interview and the job right on the spot.

Not only that but the pay was significantly higher.

He wouldn't have to work overtime and we would STILL have money to put in savings.

we are so excited!

Unfortunately,

his current employer didn't respond to him in the way he'd hoped.

He really wanted to maintain a good relationship with them because they taught him so much.

He really appreciated all he'd learned from them, but when it came down to it, he needed more money.  His current employer wasn't willing to provide that so he had to find someone that would.  It was honestly a nightmare getting away from that job.  They did some pretty shady and unprofessional things to him which ended up with him deciding to leave that job earlier than he'd planned.

Honestly,

he didn't deserve to be treated the way they were treating him simply because he was leaving.  It wasn't anything personal towards them...he's just trying to make an honest living! 

So he went a whole week without work while his new job got everything together for him...which drove him crazy. haha 

He could not wait to go back to work.

His first day was yesterday and he came home in the best mood he's ever been in after work.

He LOVES this new job.  

We are SO excited for this new opportunity and I'm so so grateful for a husband that would do anything to provide for his family. He really is the hardest worker.  I love him so much!!

craziness

After a couple months of pulling my hair out,

I am officially working for that home health job.

I've been working there for about a month,

but just barely got on my own.

Right after they hired me,

we realized my CNA license had expired in January.

Usually you just have to send in a form showing that you worked at least 100 hours in a year

and they renew it.

But if you don't do that within 30 days after it's expired,

you have to take the test all over again.

YEAH.

It's $70 to take the test and let me tell you how ridiculous they make this process.

I had to call the Nursing assistant registry to tell them I needed to renew my license.

Because it's been over 30 days I had to retake the test.

SO instead of just paying for it over the phone, or in person,

they make you send the payment in the mail.

That's all the lady I talked to said.

She said to send the payment of $70 in the mail,

and they would send back the list of testing centers and my testing voucher.

So,

I wrote a check and sent it in the mail,

a few days later I received a letter saying that they didn't accept checks.

Call me dumb, but the only other form of payment I knew about through mail was cash.

I didn't want to send $70 cash, but that was all I could think of.

So I sent that.

FINALLY,

even though they called me and said that they don't usually accept cash, but they would this time (this was when I heard about cashiers check...or whatever that's called),

they finally sent me the vouchers.

THEN,

I had to set up a time to take my test.

There were two seperate ones...and the first one wasn't for two weeks and the other one wasn't until two weeks after that.

After taking them both and finally passing them

(Oh yeah..they send the results in the mail too...)

I was able to start my job.

Can I Just say that i absolutely LOVE it?

I don't have co-workers.

It's absolute heaven!

I don't have to deal with rude, inconsiderate people that like to cause problems.

All I need to worry about is making my patients happy.

I love my patients too.

and you wanna know the best of the best part?

The management there is AWESOME!

They, unlike the management at my previous job, don't hunger for control.

They are so awesome and so laid back.

Obviously they would crack down on someone if they weren't performing their job well.

In other words,

If they were receiving negative feedback, or complaints from their patients.

AND they always make sure they show the CNA's appreciation.

They always let the CNA's know that if it wasn't for their hard work,

things would not be going as well.

I gotta say,

I am so so bitter about my last job that I'm really close to writing in to the head of the hospital.

I'm not kidding. I am still so offended and every time I think about it,

I just cannot believe how badly I was treated.

I'm just so glad I was able to get away from them.

I NEVER have to see any of those jerks again!!

My new job is incredible.

I love it and I actually feel like I get to make a difference in someone's life.

These people actually rely on ME to get to bed at night

(since I'm working nights).

I just have to say that I've never found a job more perfect for me.

Especially when i'm a mom.

I work 2- 2/12 hours at the most.

It's so amazing.

If you have someone in your life that is in need of home health or hospice,

let me know and I'll hook you up with the best place around!

****

In other news,

Kali had her Urologist appointment on the 10th.

I know that was a while ago but I am just now finding a few minutes to write it.

Results.

Let's just say I'm a little annoyed that we had to pay $55 dollars for them to tell us what we were told at the very beginning of this whole ordeal.

They are going to put Kali on Antibiotics for a year and test it again.

If she hasn't grown out of it by then,

they are going to do surgery.

She's too little for them to determine whether or not she is going to grow out of it.

They said that a little less thatn 50% of kids do.
So we'll see.

They said that if she get's another UTI before that though,

they will have to do surgery right then.

So...

I'm REALLY paranoid.

Like,

extremely.

This week Kali has had a very very very slight fever.

and she's been really fussy.

SO I took her in.

I really hope she doesn't get another one because I really don't want her to have surgery.

It would be so nice if she just grew out of it.

I would be SOO glad!

***

OH yeah...

Tyson got a $1 raise last week :)

10,9,8,7,6,5,4,3,2,1 :)

ten. Favorite Places to be. 
in no particular order...
1. in bed, sleeping, while cuddling up with my sexy husband and beautiful daughter

2. at home, playing with my baby and hubby

3. on a date with Tyson, anywhere, just with him on a date

4. Lagoon or some kind of theme park
5. Swimming

6. out with friends

7. somewhere with an ocean

8. Visiting and playing with Dustin, Andrea and Avery

9. Dancing

10. Shopping for Kalista

nine. Weird things about me

1. I love to take baths

2. I have extreme insomnia. So while my baby is sound alseep (like right now), I'm wide awake with 100000 things going through my head.

 3. I'm SUPER cheap and usually won't by something unless it is on sale or I get some kind of deal on it.

 4. I hate clothes shopping for myself [when i'm purchasing it..] and will make up any excuse I possibly can to avoid it

 5. I am wayyyy too OCD about some things, especially when it comes to my house and organization.

 6. I have to run and jump when I'm getting on a bed that someone could fit under...(ever seen "The Sixth Sense"??)

 7. For some reason, when I was pregnant with Kali, I craved, more than anything else, chewing on a sponge. There were times that my mouth would water just thinking about it. (SOOO gross. I don't know where the heck that came from)

 8. I'm an Irish twin. :)

 9. I HATE driving my car. Not because I hate driving, but because it makes me sick to think about how many miles I'm putting on it.

 
eight. Things I am going to do this summer

1. SWIM
2. Lagoon
3. boating (at least I really really really really want to)
4. Taylor Swift Concert with my good pal, Stefanie
5. Get a tan!
6. Figure out how to get rid of Kalista's Acid Reflux!
7. Get my hair done (seriously thinking about cutting it off. I know a lot of new moms do it, but it's starting to BUGG ME)
8. Lose at least 10 pounds

seven. Things I am thinking of. 

1. My husband <3 I miss him. I'm at my Oma's taking care of her tonight, so Kali and I don't get to sleep with him tonight.
2. Kalista Jean
3. The creepy movie that is on the T.V. right now. Not sure what it is.
4. Breastfeeding
5. water. I'm THIRSTY
6. How I am really really really tired, but can't sleep
7. my oma

six. Things I am wearing. 

1. light pink, capri pajamas
2. coast guard t-shirt
3. elastic around my wrist
4. nail polish
5. My wedding ring
6. my undergarments :)

five. Things I am worried about

1. how much sleep I'll get tonight
2. my Oma
3. Kali. I really want her to start feeling better
4. passing the CNA test I have to retake because my license has expired.
5. and, of course, MONEY

four. Things on my floor
well, I'm not home and the floor here is not technically MY FLOOR. So let me think about home...
1. Kali's bouncer
2. *sniff* a trail of partly used laundry detergent left by the comforter that my washer destroyed...that I didn't have a chance to clean up before having to come to Oma's *sniff*
3. my breast pump
4. pillows

three. Things I want to do today

1. Get some sleep since it's 12:30 am
2. Clean my house
3. Go to Target

two. Things I will reveal

1. I am constantly worrying about whether or not I'm a good mom and if I am really doing everything right for Kali
2. I HATE unsolicited advice

one. A Secret

1. Okay, I just barely started admitting this to myself, so this is kinda huge that I'm putting it on here for the world to see: There are a LOT of things I hate about myself.  I mean I know they say, "you're your own worst critic", but really, there are not many things I can think of that I do like about myself. I have been working really really hard, especially since I've been married to change who I am, but sometimes I just think "If I was someone else and I met me, I wouldn't like me" I just feel like I always come off as either grumpy, or that I think I'm better than everyone else.  I am neither of those things, but it has come to my attention that it's the way I come across to people. 

I also hate how I can never explain my feelings to people. Like, I can write my feelings down and everything makes sense in my head, but when it comes to talking about something that I'm upset about, I can't. It always ends up in a huge arguement. Not necessarily with Tyson, I think we are starting to communicate really well, but with other people around me. Particularly my extended family.

We've been trying a lot harder to include the Gospel in our lives more than we have been and I feel like that is helping a lot. But I just feel very misunderstood sometimes. I feel like lately I have burned many bridges and I don't even know why. i.e. EVERYONE I worked with at my job at IMC. I'm SOOOO GLAD I don't work there anymore because everyone. seriously like, 90% of the people there hate my guts. I strongly believe that a lot of the people there are rude, judgemental and insensitive, but besides that, I just feel like I'm sometimes really annoying.

THANK HEAVEN for Tyson. He talks to me about all of this stuff and even helps me figure out how to fix them. Although I have a long long way to go, I think Tyson is ultimately the one that has helped me get as far as I have. I love him SO SO MUCH! 

WOAH that was a long answer to #1. 

haha. 

Anyway. 

Maybe I'll be able to sleep now since I've been staring at the computer for the last 20 minutes. 

CROSS YOUR FINGERS!! :)

Still Alive and Kickin!

Okay so It's been a while since I have posted.

We have been SOO busy.

That's even an understatement.

Seriously.

I haven't found one second to breathe until RIGHT NOW!

Since my last post we have-

- Moved into our new house

- Celebrated the 4th of July

-Celebrated my Birthday

- Quit my job

- and had Kali's two month Dr Check up which = SHOTS :'(

New House

YES

We are officially all moved in.

It feels SOOO GOOD to be on our own again.

As much as we appreciated my parents for letting us live with them for FREE,

(we were able to save up a good amount of money because of them!) 

I feel like I can finally be the mother and wife that I want to be.

We finally get to be our own little family <3

We still have some decorating to do.

I'm pretty much done with the main stuff.

I just need to get some more picture for our frames

and then Decorate the Nursery and our bedroom.

I had all of these plans to make Kali's room SOO cute.

I could see the vision in my head.

Princess and the Frog.

BUT,

I'm kind of a cheap skate when it comes to money...

So today, after looking around for some cute bedding for her Crib,

I just gave in to a cheap one at Target.

It's the same colors as the room,

and does go with the theme and all,

but I wanted her room to be more Elegant than it is going to be.

I was hoping for just a bunch of WHITE RUFFLY bedding.

But I didn't want to spend that much on it.

I have recently picked up couponing which doesn't help my 'cheap skate' situation at all either!

haha.

But that's okay.
Kali doesn't really care about her room right now,

so quite frankly,

I'm not going to waste a bunch of money on something that she won't get to even enjoy.

My vision of her nursery could have EASILY been more than $1000.

I'm not gonna do it!

SO,

we'll see how my cheaper version turns out.

and I'll take pictures of the entire house when it's ALL completely done.

4th of July

The Day we left for St George,

We received a package in the mail from my Aunt Julie from Idaho.

She had sent us this ADORABLE Dress for Kali for the 4th of July

Isn't is so cute?

We went to my parents house for a bbq, swimming and fireworks that day.

It was so fun!

Kali met some if her friends for the first time :)

Kali and Luke

Kali and Jada

I love Independence day!

It's one of my favorite holidays.

My Birthday

My birthday was very laid back.

It was fun though and I really enjoyed the day.

My friend Chelsie,

Took me to Iggys for lunch.

It was SOO yummy and so fun to catch up with her.

When Tyson got home from work we went to Dinner with my parents, my Oma and my Aunt MJ.

We went to Cheesecake Factory.

MMMm it was so dang delish.

I love that place immensely.

When we got back to my parents house my little sister had made me a suprise cake.

my favorite cake btw.

haha.

I got lots of gifts!

One of which was a shirt from my sister that i'm wearing right now actually! ha

Quit my Job

YES that is correct.

and it feels SOOO good!

I couldn't stand that place any longer.

They were SOO rude to me during my pregnancy.

Like intolerabley rude about everything.

(and it's the WOMENS CENTER!? Wouldn't you think they'd be more understanding?)

I put my two weeks in the day before my first day back.

and my last day was yesterday.

can I get a HALLELUJIAH!?

I just got a less than part time job with a home health company instead,

which is only about three hours a day.

and I'm pretty sure it's not everyday.

I also am taking care of my Oma three times a week.

you have no idea what a happy camper I am.

I am pretty much a stay at home mom.

Kali comes with me when I take care of my Oma

So life is good!

I seriously love my life.

....except for this next part...

Kali's Dr Appointment

Kali had her Dr appointment on Wednesday.

Saddest day ever.

I'm not even kidding.

She had to get her shots.

She's a good baby.

Especially considering that she has epic Acid Reflux.

When the nurse gave her the THREE shots...

oh my gosh.

I've never heard he cry so hard in her life.

Her face turned red,

along with the not breathing inbetween cries.

It was horrible.

I started crying too.

like I had tears running down my face.

I felt stupid and kept apologizing to the nurse for crying but it was SO sad.

I just hated seeing her go through that.

The shots affected her until today.
She's finally back to her normal self.

She was so fussy yesterday, Thursday and for the rest of the day on Wednesday.

I don't ever want to go through that again.

It was so so sad.

and these last few days,

the only thing that seemed to make her feel better,

was a bath with mommy.

Anyway,

That's the update on our life right now!

We love it :) 

OH PS,

I just made this blog public again.

You can read the post on my other blog if you want the explanation!

:)

WC #17

17. most recent picture of you and your significant other and what you love most about them :) and any other thoughts.

I know this picture is already on this blog,
but it's the most recent of us!

What I love MOST about him?

There is definitely more than one thing.
As I sit and type this,
it is 1:20 in the morning.
He has to be up in an hour and a half for work.
He's been working this schedule since about a week before Kali was born.
and not tomorrow [hallelujiah],
but on mondays and wednesdays,
he has school from 6-10.
He usually doesn't get off work until about 5
(TONS of overtime for him lately!)
I love that he is such a hard worker.
I haven't heard him complain about this schedule ONCE.
I'm sitting here,
unable to sleep
(while my baby is SOUND asleep in my lap. yeah. thank you mind for not letting me sleep while my baby is!)

and my husband is asleep in our bed.
sometimes I just like to cuddle with him while he's sleeping.
I just feel this overwhelming feeling of love for him all of the time lately.

He is SUCH an incredible husband and father.

I couldn't ask for anything better.

he is definitely my other half.

I know we're married now and everything,

but I still just feel so guilty for what I put him through before his mission

and even for a while after his mission.

I was a dang brat!

I love how hot he is :)

I'm sick right now.

I have a dumb chest cold.

I woke up today with hardly a voice and I've had a cough all week.

about 20 minutes after Tyson got home from work,

I all of he sudden got this TERRIBLE headache.

I'm not kidding. I couldn't even open my eyes.

I couldn't even work up enough energy to cry.

He waited on me like it was his only job.

He got me a bottle of water and some ibuprofen and told me to take a nap.

I laid down and when he saw that I was all situated,

he told me he was going to run to the grocery store

(because I haven't been grocery shopping since before Kali was born.

I'm serious, I'm such a slacker. I really need to get the ball rolling again, but I rationalize SOO much cause all I want to do is cuddle this baby!)

He said that he needed shampoo

(yeah he's been out for about a week and a half and hasn't said anything because he's felt guilty. MAN I suck at being a wife right now.)

and he asked if we needed anything else.

I told him we needed a few other things and asked if he could get stuff for himself for lunch.

(I usually pack a lunch for him when he goes to work...but haven't been doing that either so he's been eating out pretty much everyday...which we shoudn't be doing cause we are supposed to be saving up as much as we can. He hasn't had a choice though since I haven't been grocery shopping!)

I then asked him if he could fill up my water mug before he left since he was going to be going upstairs, and my parents have THE BEST ice in their fridge. ha I know. I'm crappy.

He said yes and then got ready to go.

Then he left and as he was pulling out of the neighborhood,

he realized he forgot to fill up my mug so he TURNED AROUND and came home just to do it.

Seriously.

I love him so much.

When I woke up from my nap he had done a good amount of grocery shopping too.

So now we have food again.

I love how, even when he's working his BUTT off all day,

he comes home from work and still helps me.

I feel so pathetic when he does that.

like I did today.

But I wasn't feeling well.

I hope my cold leaves soon.

I love how my husband is constantly thinking of other people.

He rarely is thinking about himself.

It's always what my brothers need,

or what his brother needs.

When he came home from work today,

I had been sitting out in my car waiting for him cause I had just gotten home from the Dr.

I was just sitting there okay?

He gets home and sees my parents garbage sitting outside,

so he rolls it in to the back and then makes sure that everything looks good.

I had just been SITTING THERE.

I could have done it..but I didn't think about it because I am not as selfless as my husband.

I love how,

even though he's been working his butt off all day,

he comes home with a smile on his face and in the best mood.

That definitely wouldn't be me if I was working like him!

I love how he is with Kalista.

He is an INCREDIBLE father already and is SOO paranoid about her and every little noise she makes.

Whenever he comes home from work and holds her while she's awake,

she'll just stare at him while he talks to her.

She would do it for hours if she could.

She LOVES her daddy.

I just love my husband.

I feel like I'm just rambling so I'm going to stop here...

but I want you to know that i'm just getting started here.

I could go on forever about the things that I love about him.

But I'm typing and even though Tyson is a pretty heavy sleeper,

I'm worried my typing is going to eventually wake him up so I am going to stop now.

I'm SOOO Blessed.

I am so blessed

Well,

Tomorrow I will be 36 weeks.

Just one more week until I can start TRYING to get her to come.

It's been kinda rough the past few days.

This stage of the pregnancy is the EXTREMELY uncomfortable stage.

Now let me tell you,

I would prefer this over the nausea and vomitting ANY DAY!

I think this trimester is the best so far.

However,

that does not mean that I don't get EXTREMELY irritable at times.

I seriously feel like ripping my hair out someimes because

a- I can't sleep

and

b- It doesn't matter which way I'm sitting/standing/laying, I am ALWAYS uncomfortable.

I'm one of those people that need comfort.

Like, I would prefer to NOT wear heels and be comfortable, then to wear heels and get blisters and have uncomfortable feet.

But when it all comes down to it,

the emotion I've been feeling the most lately is pure EXCITEMENT.

Because of this, my impatient personality is getting the best of me!!

Let me just kinda give you a run down some moments I've had this past week.

I worked a regular 12 hour shift on Friday

(btw, thanks to HR, my boss has [mostly] backed off)

because Tyson doesn't have school on Fridays,

he gets home before me.

When I got home,

The house was clean and when I went into our bedroom I found this on the bed:

I love suprises like this.

My husband works all day and then comes home, cleans the house and gives me THIS!

We went on a date that night with Stefanie and her husband

and then I couldn't WAIT to go to bed because I was so anxious for the next day.

I was having my first baby shower! :):)

When I woke up,

Tyson was already out of bed.

I could smell breakfast cooking and envied my siblings upstairs.

They were getting some yummy breakfast by the smells of it!

I wasn't sure where Tyson was, but I just got out of bed and started getting ready for the baby shower.

When I was about done with my hair,

the bathroom door opens, Tyson is holding a spatula and says

"Breakfast is about ready"

He made me breakfast! That's what I was smelling!

I quickly finished my hair and went into the kitchen.

He had made the most DELICIOUS breakfast I've had in a long time...and he cleaned it up too!

I love my husband.

He's so good to me and treats me so dang well!

My baby shower went so great!

Thanks to my incredible visiting teachers,

it turned out so cute!

The decorations were so cute and creative.

The refreshement table was my favorite:

Isn't that the cutest cupcake idea ever??

We got so many gifts there!

It was so fun.

I was texting Tyson through the whole thing,

telling him the gifts we were getting and sending him pictures of the ones he wanted to see.

After I sent him one of the last pictures

(which was a picture of a swimsuit for Kali),

He said this

"That is WAY CUTE! All of is stuff is making me excited. I can't wait Andee :) I'm feeling really funny inside.."

haha I laughed forever after reading that last part.

I LOVE how excited he is.

I then showed my mom the text and she took the liberty of reading it out loud to everyone

(SHH don't tell Tyson...he doesn't know I've been sharing it with people. haha)

Anyway,

the rest of that day pretty much involved us organizing Kali's stuff.

It's getting quite crowded in this room!!

On Sunday,

I had to work :(

I only had to work 8 hours this time though and was off at 3pm.

Tyson and I decided to go visit my Oma that day and drove out to Farmington.

I had been having contractions all day,

but they weren't really consistent or close together.

However,

while we were visiting with my Aunt,

They got really bad.

To the point where I wanted to cry.

We ended up leaving and going to the hospital on the way home.

I was trying to decide whether or not we should.

I kept going back and forth on my decision, but decided that I'd rather be safe than sorry!

We got there, they admit me to a room and sure enough, for the second time, I was contracting.

(I don't remember if I posted about this, but I was in the hospital at the beginning of April too...the day after my Opa died. I was contracting then as well.)

They wanted to give me the shot they gave me at the beginning of April..But I kinda refused.

I HATED the way that shot made me feel last time and I really didn't want to get it again.

They said that was fine and they understood and they would give me a morphine and phenegren shot instead.

I said okay...but at the same time was disappointed that they had to stop it.

like I said, my impatient personality is getting the best of me!!

After that, the contractions got worse for about a half hour,

and then after that they completely left and I fell asleep....

That morphine totally wiped me out.

I was completely out of it after that, but the contractions were gone and they sent me home.

We got home around midnight..and I had to wake up at 5:30 for work.

I cannot tell you how miserable of a day of work was!

I have NEVER been so tired during work in my LIFE.

I really don't know how I made it through.

A lady I work with that I love,

threw me a baby shower yesterday as well.

We got some more gifts and I hope she knew how grateful I was!!

When I got home,

(which I'm not sure how i was able to drive home without falling asleep)

I went to bed.

I got home around nine and I slept until 8:30 this morning.

I can't believe how long I slept!

I've hardly seen Tyson though.

He had school yesterday until 10 pm and had to wake up this morning at 3 am!!

He's such a busy hard workin man!

Good thing I don't work today and I get to see him tonight when he gets off work..cause he only has school twice a week!