Tuesday, March 29, 2011


I've been seeing a lot of this Vlogging stuff lately.
So I'm going to start doing it once a week.

I decided that I'm going to copy Shawntae and do the Vloggin' Vednesday thing that her and many others do!

We'll see how successful I am at doing this EVERY wednesday.
Hopefully I'll do it on most at least ;)

and I know it's only Tuesday,
but I'm doing it a day early this week since I have some time to do it today!!

Here we go.
Don't mind my hair... or makeup for that matter.
I've been so so [more than usual] tired lately and didn't get very ready today.
(oh how often those days have been these past few months!!)

Also, it's become apparant to me, that when I'm not smiling, I look mad.
that's my "normal face" I promise I'm not in a bad mood!
(and this pregnancy has really made me bust out if you know what I'm talking about. haha it's embarrassing.)

Saturday, March 26, 2011

Forever and ever and ever

We went to the Temple today.
We've been so bad at going and haven't been since probably last November.

We had some things that we've been stressing about and today was the perfect opportunity to go.

We've been seriously stressing about buying and house and since my Supervisor just moved me to part time starting May 15th, we're now worried that we won't qualify.

Yeah I really thought ahead on that one huh?

we went to the temple.

It was a very interesting Temple visit
but also very spiritual.
I love the way I feel when I go.
I just feel so much burden lifted when I enter the Lords house.

we really need to go more.
We have no excuse not to besides the fact that we're busy...
but aren't we all??

When we got there, 
I could barely fit into my temple dress and it took two of the women in the dressing room to help me zip it up.
I was sort of embarassed but glad that I had an excuse :-)

We decided today that we wanted to do sealings.
they led us to the  sealing room.
I was feeling really good.

We were sitting in the chairs and they were doing Children sealings to their parents.
During those I became a little emotional and reality seemed to hit me all of the sudden.
 I've known this but haven't really given much thought to it.

Kalista is going to be my daughter forever.
She is going to be born into the Covenant.
do you know how incredibely happy that makes me?

It hit me so hard in that room.
Realizing that Tyson and I are bringing a child into this world,
and into the Covenant.

She is ours forever.
It is something I've always wanted.

I rememeber sobbing at night after deciding to place Avery for adoption,
thinking that she wasn't going to be sealed to me...
What I didn't realize then,
 was that if I DIDN'T place her for adoption,
She would have never been sealed to her parents.

I am positive that her birth father would have never given up his rights as her father to let Tyson adopt her, which would mean she would have never had the blessing of being sealed to her parents.

Do you know how awful I would feel right now if Avery was MY daughter and I had to tell her that she was the only one of her siblings that wasn't sealed to us??

Talk about horrible.
This is yet another reason that Adoption is so amazing.

and I am SOO happy that I can say that Kalista is sealed to me.
The Joy I feel when saying that is unreal. I can't find the right words to explain the happiness I feel.

During Tyson and I's first sealing,
I began feeling really nauseous and then Dizzy and then I could feel the blood drain from my face.

I looked up at Tyson worried that I might not make it through.
I was sure I was going to pass out.
I finally just inturrupted and explained that I was really sorry but I felt like I was going to pass out.
He took one look at me and thanked me for telling him and told Tyson to help me to a chair.

Once I sat down, he began telling me that he was glad I said something and started explaining why.
I couldn't hear however, because my ears were ringing.
I was sure I was going to throw up and pass out.

I finally just said,
I think I need to leave.
He agreed and told Tyson to go with me.

I was humiliated...but I can promise you that if I hadn't interrupted,
I would have passed out.
 and how humiliating would that have been?

Because of this we just decided to go to the Celestial room early.

I know it was just today,
but after that visit I have felt SO confident with the decision we've made.
I am actually,
 for the first time since we started this whole buying a house process,
feeling butterflies about our decision.

I know that this is all going to work out.
I am SOO grateful that my parents are letting us live here while we do though...
do you know how much money and stress it's saved us??

I'm excited to finally get going with everything...
and SO glad that I can actually move to part time after Kali is born!!

Saturday, March 19, 2011

29 weeks

I feel huge in this picture and you can tell how awkward I feel.

I am 29 and A HALF weeks.
that half is important.
At this point, every day counts

I got the SWEETEST gift in the mail today.
I walked out of my room and there was a big box sitting in our kitchen.

I was wondering what we ordered...I couldn't remember ordering anything...
and as I opened the box,
there were TONS of baby clothes!

and then I remembered.

She adopted a BEAUTIFUL little girl last August
and sent me the clothes that no longer fit her little Lily.
OH MY GOSH they are so adorable!

I was so excited and I can't tell you how sweet that was of her.
I am so excited to start organizing everything.

Does anyone know of a good place to go to find itty bitty baby hangers?
The smallest I can find are for like...older kids.
Those won't work!!

I'm so grateful for Danya right now!!

oh and also,
sad moment.

I had to take off my wedding ring today :(
it was starting to cut off my circulation...
Bring it on water retention!

Thursday, March 10, 2011

OFFICIALLY 3rd Trimester

I am OFFICIALLY in my 3rd Trimester now.
and Kali is letting me know that,
by making sure she's got her legs nice and jammed right up inside my ribs.

They're already bruised! haha.
Does this mean she is going to be a big baby?
I hope not. I like little ones.
They stay that way for longer.

I took my glucose test last week.
So far I haven't heard anything back,
So pretty much I passed :)

I will post a picture later.
Tyson is working and at school ALWAYS so he isn't around to take a picture.
I'll have him do it tonight though!!

Thursday, March 3, 2011

27 weeks

13 weeks to go!

I had a Dr Appointment today.

It's been a rough week.
My sciatic nerve has not been my friend.
It started hurting on Friday last week, and by Monday of this week, I could hardly walk.

yesterday I was in so much pain, I set up an appointment with one of my co-workers (suz),
who is also a massage therapist.

She works at this place called Salt Lake Prenatal Massage.
She told me she could help make it better.
I talked to the manager of the store yesterday to give her all of my information and I asked her if there was something I could do to help make the pain bareable until the massage.

She gave me this exercise that she said makes it better for some,
but she couldn't guarantee it would work.

I decided to give it a try.
I regretted it.

I ended up in tears by the end of it because it just made it worse.
I could hardly even sit in my bed and almost ended up sleeping in our [new :)] rocking chair last night.

Thanks to Tyson,
he helped me get in bed!

So today I went to the Dr and he wrote a prescription for me to go see a physical therapist.
I called...and they are booked until NEXT friday.
that is a week and a day away.

I can't wait that long.
So I crossed my fingers that this massage would work.
I just got home..and IT WORKED.

I mean, the pain isn't completely gone,
but it's manageable enough for me to walk without crying out in pain.

After the Dr, before the massage,
I was really emotional.
I was so upset because I felt like this pregnancy is killing me.
The last one was NOTHING compared to this.
I just feel like it's one thing after another.
My sciatic nerve hurt with Avery, but NOTHING like this.

I was driving on the freeway and was just thinking about all of this.
and then I started thinking about what the reason it.
Like, what the outcome is going to be.

and It's worth it.
It's so hard, and so painful and uncomfortable and miserable,
but the result in the end is going to be worth it.
I just need to keep reminding myself that.
I need to keep remembering that I'm getting MY baby.
She will be mine and the pain I'm feeling isn't forever.

The last pregnancy wasn't this bad
and I think that was a blessing.
I wasn't getting a baby out of it.
But this time,
I am :)

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

are you kidding me!?


Do you see these last few posts?
I set them to automatically post cause these past couple of days were busy.

Do you see what it did!?!?

I'm done with this 30 day thing.
It doesn't EVER post what I say to.

Tuesday, March 1, 2011