27 weeks

13 weeks to go!

I had a Dr Appointment today.

It's been a rough week.

My sciatic nerve has not been my friend.

It started hurting on Friday last week, and by Monday of this week, I could hardly walk.

Then,

yesterday I was in so much pain, I set up an appointment with one of my co-workers (suz),

who is also a massage therapist.

She works at this place called Salt Lake Prenatal Massage.

She told me she could help make it better.

I talked to the manager of the store yesterday to give her all of my information and I asked her if there was something I could do to help make the pain bareable until the massage.

She gave me this exercise that she said makes it better for some,

but she couldn't guarantee it would work.

I decided to give it a try.

well,

I regretted it.

I ended up in tears by the end of it because it just made it worse.

I could hardly even sit in my bed and almost ended up sleeping in our [new :)] rocking chair last night.

Thanks to Tyson,

he helped me get in bed!

So today I went to the Dr and he wrote a prescription for me to go see a physical therapist.

I called...and they are booked until NEXT friday.

DUDE,

that is a week and a day away.

I can't wait that long.

So I crossed my fingers that this massage would work.

I just got home..and IT WORKED.

I mean, the pain isn't completely gone,

but it's manageable enough for me to walk without crying out in pain.

After the Dr, before the massage,

I was really emotional.

I was so upset because I felt like this pregnancy is killing me.

The last one was NOTHING compared to this.

I just feel like it's one thing after another.

My sciatic nerve hurt with Avery, but NOTHING like this.

I was driving on the freeway and was just thinking about all of this.

and then I started thinking about what the reason it.

Like, what the outcome is going to be.

and It's worth it.

It's so hard, and so painful and uncomfortable and miserable,

but the result in the end is going to be worth it.

I just need to keep reminding myself that.

I need to keep remembering that I'm getting MY baby.

She will be mine and the pain I'm feeling isn't forever.

The last pregnancy wasn't this bad

and I think that was a blessing.

I wasn't getting a baby out of it.

But this time,

I am :)