We have some big changes coming in our family and I'm not just referring to a new baby.
Without being too personal since this is, in fact, on the internet,
I need somewhere to share this so that I don't forget it.
We are about to take a big risk as a family.
The biggest risk we've made in our entire marriage and I'm scared!
Mostly because I am such a control freak.
I have such an intense need to control everything in my life,
and with what is about to happen,
I have to let my control go, and put more faith in my husband.
Tyson is an incredible husband and I trust him more than anyone else.
However, because of my personality, it's hard for me to just let go and not have an incredible anxiety attack in the process.
I've been praying, getting advice from others, reading scriptures and reading talks on lds.org to help me with this and while I was reading a talk by elder H. Bruce Stucki of the seventy, I came across the scripture Moroni 7:33
And Christ hath said: If ye will have faith in me ye shall have power to do whatsoever thing is expedient in me.
and then I kept reading:
Behold I say unto you, Nay; for it is by faith that miracles are wrought; and it is by faith that angels appear and minister unto men; wherefore, if these things have ceased wo be unto the children of men, for it is because of unbelief, and all is vain.
I'm so grateful because I feel like this has helped me so much.
Tyson was talking to me a few months ago about how faith and hope go hand in hand and these scriptures reminded me of what we talked about.
I've been such a pessimist about this new path we are taking.
I have been so convinced and certain that something will go wrong,
what we are talking about is too good to be true,
and have had a hard time believing that the good that will come of this is really going to happen.
I've played through every worst case scenario in my head and focused on those and stressed and stressed about them.
After reading these scriptures tonight,
I have realized that I need to have more hope.
I need to give my worries and stresses to the Lord,
and I need to have more faith that it's going to work out.
It's going to be SO hard to do,
But I know it will be good for me
it will be a great learning experience regardless of the outcome.