Tuesday, June 12, 2012

I'm addicted to my child

I need help.
I have an addiction.

I'm addicted to my daughter.
I'm not even kidding.
if I'm away from her for more than a couple of hours,
she's all I can think about and I can't WAIT to see her.

I work night shifts twice a week...
and I'm not kidding, after the first couple of hours,
I start to miss her SOO MUCH.
All I do is think about her.
I hate hate hate hate being away from her.

But that's the least of my problems.

It's even worse when I'm away from her during the day.
I mean...
at night she's sleeping the entire time.

But during the day,
it KILLS me to think about what I'm missing and I worry about her like crazy.
Unless she's with her dad,
it doesn't matter who she's with,
I have this anxiety.
I worry about whether or not she's okay...even though I NEVER leave her with anyone besides family.

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Does anyone else have this problem?
because I'm really worried that it's not going to get any better as she grows.

HOW am I going to be able to let her go to school during the day??
It will just kill me and all I will do all day long is worry about her.
Kids can be MEAN!
I don't want my baby experiencing that.

Even now if she's around little kids,
It's really hard for me to be okay with it when one of those kids are mean to her.
Obviously they're at an age where they are that way,
but Kali usually isn't.

She's such a friendly baby and wants to be everyones friend...
how is it okay to let her feel sad when someone is mean to her?

Somethings wrong with me here!
I need help dealing with this because I'm going to go crazy as she grows up.

I'm addicted to my baby.
I seriously love this little girl so much no words in the world can describe it.
I just LOVE her!!

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1 comment:

  1. This is so cute! I felt that WAY more with Nate than I did Audrey......except I think that's because I worked from home. But it does go away as they get older because they can talk and you can get a sense of how they feel. When you know they're ok with being away from you it's a lot easier. Plus ages 2-4 (maybe longer? I only have a 4 year old) can be really frustrating so sometimes it feels nice to get away from them, but only for short amounts of time.

    I hear ya about the school thing. That's why we're homeschooling. Not to shelter them, but to not subject them to stupid crap like that without a choice. If they decide to go to school later then we'll let them, but not while their minds are so sensitive and can be influenced by a negative comment for the rest of their lives. Not to mention the fact that I don't want Nate to be "diagnosed" by a teacher with something stupid like ADD. So we're already starting to get involved in the homeschooling community. My best friend is doing it too. It's going to be tough while both of us work full time, but the good thing about home school is that it happens 24-7 and at least one of us will be home with them hopefully (working opposite schedules). Anyway I know I'm "weird" I just want the best for my kids too :D