That time I almost died

Okay, 

the title may be a little dramatic, 

but in all reality, it could've happened.

As I mentioned previously,

I had to be put on an IV earlier in this pregnancy. 

I couldn't keep anything down.

The nurse that came the first day to start my IV,

didn't give me as much information as she should have in order to make sure I knew how to properly change the tubing every day.

Let's just skim past the part that I used to be a CNA and should have enough medical knowledge to keep myself safe from situations like this, 

but I'm going to try to make myself look better by blaming the pregnancy brain okay?

It was the day after I received my IV.

it was a Saturday and while Tyson would normally be home,

he'd just left to have his tires changed on his car. 

I was in bed (it was around noon),

but this was the new normal because I'd been so sick.

My girls were going back and forth between playing in their playroom, the family room, and cuddling with me. 

I had to change my IV line for the first time and figured it'd be simple enough.

I wasn't told I needed to flush it or anything,

and again, let's forget about my previous medical experience.

So, after I got the line all hooked up, I couldn't figure out why it wasn't starting.

So I grabbed one of the syringes that you use to properly flush it, (With everything being unlocked),

and instead of unlocking both sides, I just unlocked one. 

This resulted in a gigantic air bubble in the tube.

It crossed my mind for maybe a second that this might not be a good thing,

but I just ignored it when it didn't seem to feel any different as it went into my arm.

The IV started flowing,

so I just grabbed my phone,

made myself as comfortable as possible,

and started playing a game. 

About 20-30 seconds went by when Kali walked in to ask me a question. 

I started responding when I had to cough.

But when I did cough, it didn't fix the problem. 

It started getting worse and worse to the point where I couldn't breathe.

I was trying to cough out the misery I felt in my chest, 

but it wasn't working and it got so bad that I started throwing up

(luckily I had my precious puke bowl right next to me).

Even throwing up wasn't working and at this point I could barely get a breath in between the violent coughing that was now forcing it's way out of me. 

I started to panic and called Tyson telling him he needed to come home NOW.

He couldn't.

his car was already being worked on so he was stranded.

I then called my mom and tried to explain that I needed her here and while my attempts to speak were  becoming less and less simple, she understood and said she'd be right over.

Kali, who watched me start coughing,

ran into the kitchen and brought me back some water 

(I didn't ask for this you guys. She was trying to help me and it was the sweetest thing. I am so touched by how loving and helpful she always is.)

I could barely take enough short breaths to keep breathing at this point and thought I was going to die. 

I knew I wasn't getting the oxygen I needed and was beginning to worry that my baby was going to die as well. So I called 911. 

As I was forcing out my words to the operator,

I began to feel like I could breath a little better.

While I was still violently coughing,

I wasn't puking anymore and I could get in enough air to at least form a sentence. 

I began to feel like maybe I would be okay and kindly apologized to the 911 operator and told him to cancel the call. The last thing I wanted was to cause a scene for my neighbors. especially if it wasn't necessary.

As soon as I hung up the phone,

the doorbell rang.

It was our next door neighbors who said that Tyson had called and asked them to come check on me. 

I was pretty shaken up and although I could not form sentences, I was still really freaked out. 

 so my neighbor gave me a blessing.

As soon as it was over, I felt back to normal. I all of the sudden felt like nothing had even happened.

It was the strangest experience. 

I am not positive that the air in the tube is what caused that episode,

but there is nothing else I can think of that would have made that happen so randomly.

It scared me! 

I felt so stupid for not thinking about what could happen if air got into my blood stream.

The nurse that came that day,

insisted that if I had gotten air in the line,

that I wouldn't have been able to catch my breath again and the paramedics would've had to intervene.

But I'm not convinced.

I really believe that air in the line is what caused that "episode".

there's absolutely nothing else that it could've been.

The nurse said I could've been having a panic attack,

but there was nothing that would've caused a panic attack at that moment. 

It hadn't even crossed my mind that the air in the tube could've been the factor until after the fact.

I was relaxing in my bed.

I had no reason to be having a panic attack. 

Anyway,

I just had to document my stupidity/my near death experience 😂😂

Funny Story ;)

A few weeks ago,

Tyson and I went to a Halloween party.

It was there that I began to realize that I was more on edge than normal.

 

When we were in the car on the way home,

My poor husband was bugging me.

For no reason at all.

 

He wasn't saying anything that would put me on the defensive,

he was in fact, in a good mood and was attempting to talk to me about the party.

I wasn't feeling very well, but that didn't have anything to do with why I was so on edge.

 

I tried my very best to not show him my annoyance to everything around me,

and when we got home, despite my nausea, I immediately left for work.

I was working a graveyard shift that night and had to be there by midnight.

 

As I was leaving our neighborhood I began really thinking about what was going on.

Although, in the past 3 weeks, I'd taken 5 pregnancy tests

(we started trying for a baby last month),

I decided I might as well stop at Smiths and grab a pregnancy test.

 

I was going to be a little early to work anyway and maybe that would help me understand why I was feeling this way!

 

After purchasing the pregnancy test,

I decided to just try to take one before heading back to work.

 

SO,

I went into the bathroom and attempted a test.

 

WELL,

I didn't need to urinate because I had gone before I left my house.

haha. Despite my efforts I only was able to produce a few drops...which unfortunately left me with a pregnancy test that I was sure I had wasted.

 

Since I had two tests,

I just decided I would wait until later that night to take the last one.

I put the one I'd convinced I'd ruined back in it's wrapper and into the box and headed to work.

 

While sitting at a stoplight,

I decided I might as well see if the test had showed any results at all because MAYBE it hadn't registered any and I could still use it.

(I know..I'm weird..haha)

 

So I took the test out of the wrapper and to my complete and utter shock,

there was a clear + sign...

 

I began laughing hysterically because there was NO WAY that small amount of urine could produce a positive result. NO WAY!

 

So I called my good friend Andi, who had just had a baby herself and told her the story.

She insisted that there's no way you can get a false positive and that I was indeed pregnant.

 

I couldn't believe it!

 

I couldn't wipe the smile off my face because I really was convinced that I wasn't pregnant after the 5 negative tests I'd received!

 

A few hours after getting to work,

I had to use the restroom again so I took the second test and I'm not even kidding it didn't even take 30 seconds for that + sign to show up on the test yet again!

 

 

I was freaking out!!

I was so excited! haha.

It was now a Sunday morning and I couldn't WAIT to tell Tyson!!

There was no way I'd be able to keep it a secret for longer than 5 minutes after walking through our door so I came up with a plan before I got home.

 

I took Kali and had her color on a piece of paper.

THEN,

I helped her write the words

 

"Guess what Daddy?!

I'm going to be a big sister"

 

on the paper and I had her give it to him.

 

Here's his response...

 

 

So I'm 9 weeks now and although I've been really sick, I haven't thrown up yet which is a record!

This pregnancy has been significantly different than the last two.

 

The last two I was throwing up from about 6 weeks until about 35 weeks.

I would be able to eat and when I craved stuff, I would really really want it, but I could eat other things as well.

 

THIS pregnancy,

I've been sick all day long, but I have yet to throw up.

I crave one or two specific things every day and those are the only things I can eat.

Anything else, and I mean ANYTHING else, makes me dry heave to just think about being around.

My senses are WAYY more heightened this time than they were with the other two.

I can't stand the smell of my house. like, even if it's the scent in our scentsy. BLEGH.

As of yesterday, I decided we are no longer cooking food in our house until my morning sickness is gone. I can't even go near the kitchen without dry heaving at the smell of what was just recently cooked...

haha but all I have to say is I'm not throwing up so that's good for me!!

 

My ten week Dr appointment is November 18th (I'll be pretty much 11 weeks by then by that's the earliest they can get me in!!)

 

We're so so excited to be parents of 2!

and I'm excited to see how Kali will do with a sibling :)

 

 

Surgery.

So,

Kali's surgery was Tuesday.

We woke up that morning to a happy girl [like always],

Smiling and cooing, talking to us both.

We got ready for the day,

knowing that we had to be to PCMC by noon.

We tried to keep her comfortable,

while distracting her from the fact that she could not have anything to eat until after surgery.

I packed all of the things we would need,

and we headed out the door to the Hospital.

I talked with Tyson a bit on the way there about how,

even though her pediatrician said that her surgery was simple and only involved inserting a catheter and letting out small beads,

The paperwork I got in the mail,

that I had only read the day before (oops),

said that they were doing an incision.

I was a little bit worried,

but not too much because I was just going to believe what an actual person told me,

not some dumb paper.

When we arrived,

we sat in the waiting room for them to do Kali's checkup to make sure she was healthy for the surgery.

She was peacefully asleep while we waited.

I just kept thinking that the poor girl had no idea what was about to happen.

When they called her name,

we had to wake her up while they weighed her, checked her,

and gave us a gown to change her in.

Afterwards,

The nurse walked us to another waiting room,

where we'd wait until it was time for her to go back.

We waited there while I cuddled and kissed the heck out of her

and she played with her Daddy...

(who obviously is a lot less annoying. haha)

and before we knew it,

her Urologist was walking up to us.

She began explaining the procedure to us.

This is where I learned that they were,

indeed,

doing an incision.

I wasn't happy about it to say the least,

and pretty upset about the fact that no one told me this until now!

After she finished explaining everything,

she left and the anesthesiologist came in.

He told us that he was going give her a mask to put her to sleep,

then do what they call a Cottle (which is similar to an epidural)

to help numb the area so that she wouldn't be in pain when she woke up.

That is when they would insert the I.V.,

and give her a breathing tube as well as a catheter.

When he was done explaining everything to us,

he walked us back to the furthest point we could go.

I didn't want to let go of my baby. I was holding back tears.

She was a little fussy and us both kissing her wasn't helping that.

Then,

After giving myself a silent pep talk,

I handed her over to the anesthesiologist,

a guy I had just barely met,

who I knew was going to take her to a group of people,

Who would cause her pain..

(Deep down I knew it was for the best, but at a time like this,

all I could think about was how much I despised everything about the situation)

I watched as he turned the corner with my daughter in his arms

and the last thing I saw was her grabbing at his mask.

That is when I burst into tears.

It was hard to hold back and honestly,

I could have cried a lot harder than I did...

I was still holding it in a WHOLE bunch!

Tyson was incredible through all of this.

He is my rock and held me while I cried.

We were then led to yet another waiting room.

I couldn't hold it in for very long so we quickly decided to go for a walk.

We ended up going to our car,

and I cried while we prayed for comfort and Kali's safety.

We then walked hand in hand back to the waiting room

where we waited for two hours until finally

the Urologist came in and told us everything went well.

10 minutes later,

they called for us and said that only one of us could go back to the ICU to see her.

She had just woken up.

Tyson let me.

again, I love him SO MUCH.

He asked me to send him a picture...

and this was the only one I could take before picking her up and trying to comfort my poor baby who had no idea what was going on.

Her whole face seemed so swollen and her was cry the most heartbreaking thing I've ever heard.

She seemed miserable.

Here's the battle wound.
I don't know if you can see them both but she will have both of those tubes coming out of her for a week. It's how she pees for now.

Very shortly after this,

We were moved to the room we would be staying in for the remainder of our stay.

That is when we met with Tyson.

(This girl ROCKED at her job. I loved her. She was my favorite CNA there by far.)

Once we got some food into Kali's belly...which took forever since she couldn't eat right after,

She began acting very close to her normal self.

She even sat up, played with some toys and smiled a little!

I was so happy that she seemed okay.

...Then,

about an hour later,

her Cottle began to wear off.

Even though she had Toradol AND Oxycodone,

she still seemed in pain.

Her cry was crushing me.

Her voice was gone too because of the breathing tube and it killed me to see her that way.

After holding her, while rocking her in the chair and singing her some songs...

she finally fell asleep.

After about 10 minutes,

I decided to try to lay her in the crib.

She stayed asleep for about a minute.

Then woke right up.

She had a very difficult night.

I eventually,

put her in her stoller and we seriously walked around the entire hospital...

then when we got back to our room,

she fell asleep.

She slept that way in the stroller for half the night,

then woke up and after another couple hours of rocking, coaxing and trying to get her to sleep,

she spent the rest in the crib.

I probably had 3 hours of sleep.

Kali maybe had 5 or 6?

They almost kept us there another night because of how fussy she was,

but that morning she made up for it and was in such a good mood.

We ended up leaving around 4:00 pm.

The next night went pretty well.

She only woke up twice.

(usually she doesn't wake up at all, but considering the circumstances,

she did awesome).

Last night however,

was a different story and it's been like this ever since.

She was awake a good majority of the night.

I had to rock her and tickle her back until she fell asleep.

She was sleeping with us because she would wake up if one of us wasn't touching her.

But by about 3 am...

she wouldn't go back to sleep.

She was kicking us both.

HARD for an almost 7 month old btw.

ha.

She has been SO tired all day because of that,

but again,

she won't sleep unless we're touching her.

Hence,

this picture...

She's been rubbing her eyes,

and acting so tired,

but will NOT fall asleep unless she's touching us.

Tyson had her sitting on the floor and was trying to talk to her...

and she put her head on his..and was asleep almost instantaneously.

Poor girl.

I hope she starts feeling better cause it's killing me to see her so sick.

Mixed Emotions

This was Kali when I told her that she won't be getting anymore UTI's after December 6th

(at least for a LONG time.)

No obviously she really has no idea what's going on.

I just like this picture :)

We talked to the Urologist last week.

and Kali does indeed need surgery.

It's Scheduled for December 6th.

I'm SOO happy that she is finally going to get this dealt with.

Bye Bye UTI's!

On the other hand,

I'm an emotional wreck.

Before they actually said she needed surgery,

I was hoping for it because it meant my daughter would no longer have to deal with this horrible stuff.

and yeah I knew that it would be so sad,

but now that it's actually happening,

I'm starting to get really scared.

I'm so glad that this isn't any major surgery,

because I'm pretty sure I would die if it was.

I don't think I'd be able to handle it. 

I can't even stand to think about handing Kali over to the Doctor and not being there for her through the entire thing.

I have to sit there for who knows how long,

while I know that my daughter has been put to sleep and being worked on.

It's going to kill me.

I can't even imagine how my parents felt when my little baby brother had to have Open heart surgery.

Or my cousins when their new baby daughter had to have brain surgery.

I'm so grateful that Kali's problems aren't more serious than this...

but I gotta say,

I'm a baby and I'm still going to worry like crazy until she is back in my arms and feeling better.

Because they are working on both sides and she's so little,

she has to stay there over night and then have 2 tubes (which I'm assuming are catheters...) coming out of her for a week.

They wanted to schedule the surgery for the December 21st.

Can you imagine?? She would still be recovering on Christmas.

So glad they changed it to the 6th.

So,

I'm having mixed emotions about this,

but all in all I'm SO GRATEFUL that this problem is fixable.

and I'm happy that Surgery will help her feel all better. 

Halloween

Kali was a Ladybug for halloween.

The poor girls first Halloween was not a pleasant one though.

She slept in until 11:30, which I thought was so awesome...

until she woke up and I noticed how different she seemed to be acting.

She was just not herself.

She kept grunting and moaning.

She was smiling and not crying,

but she was obviously not feeling well.

She wasn't her normal, upbeat, crazy self.

I shower my Oma three times a week,

so we went there and usually when I'm doing that Kali is sitting in her carseat,

squirming, jabbering and getting mad that I'm making her sit in her carseat.

But this day,

she just sat there and stared at me.

She didn't move at all.

I almost wanted to cry because she looked so miserable.

When we got home,

I took her out of her carseat and immediately could tell she had a fever.

I took her temperature and it was 101.4.

I called the Dr and they wanted to see her right then.

So we drove to the dr and they decided to draw her urine to see if she had another Urinary Tract Infection.

He also looked in her ears.

My poor baby screamed so hard. I've never ever heard Kali cry like she did then.

She was holding her breath and everything.

She's NEVER done that.

The first results for the UTI came back negative,

so he just told me that it was probably just a little virus but to call him if her fever didn't leave in three days, but that they were going to Culture her urine and he would let us know if anything changed

I took her home and cuddled her for the rest of the evening.

She was miserable.

That is how she spent her Halloween.

The next day,

her Doctor called and said that after only a day,

the culture ended up saying that she does indeed have a UTI.

He called back the next day saying this infection was immune to the antibiotic she was on.

so he switched her antiobiotic again.

We are now waiting for her Urologist to call us telling us whether or not she'll need surgery.

To be honest,

I'm pretty set on surgery.

I'm SO not looking forward to it,

but with the way this is all going,

Kali is going to end up immune to every single dang antibiotic,

and she's going to keep getting these infections.

I have done everything in my power to try to prevent these...

I'm just so worried about her at this point.

Anyway.

Haha. This was kind of a pathetic excuse for a Halloween post.

but that is pretty much how it went.

Medical Bills, I know you can't stay away. But the feeling isn't mutual.

Kali has yet ANOTHER UTI.

The antibiotic she was on,

wasn't helping.

Yeah.

Different Bacteria or something.

On a positive note,

{finally},

There was a cancellation at the urologist and Kali's appointment was moved to October 10th.

Hallelujiah.

Home Sweet Hospital

The last few weeks have been ridiculous to say the least.

I swear it's been just one thing after another.

I have come to the realization that the Hospital is our second home.

Let me start off with explaining why I've been MIA as of late.

Our computer broke.

Sad story. I am so sad about it.

BUT,

We don't want to get a new one until we can get a MAC.

I'm SOOO done with HP.

SO,

We're $300 dollars away from it.

We're trying to sell our 1998 Chevy Lumina.

That will help us get that extra $300 quick!

If you are looking to buy a car,

email me and I'll give you some more info!

It's a great car and runs like a champ.

We just don't need it anymore.

Anyway,

Back to the Hospital stuff.

The day our computer broke,

Tyson cut his finger open.

[Before you go any further, I am posting the picture on here. So if you don't want to see what his poor pinky looked like, scroll past the first pic ;)]

It was about 11:00 P.M when this happened

and when I came downstairs, there was blood all over the bathroom.

[for his sake, I won't go in to detail on how this happened. He would be mad at me. ha]

I almost had a heart attack.

I thought my husband was bleeding to death. haha

Then, when I realized it was his finger,

I calmed down a little...but it still freaked me out!

Anyway,

I had to get Kali out of her Crib and we made a late night trip to the ER.

Now, here are the pictures:

Before the stitches.

 

After the stitches.

Luckily, Kali slept through the entire visit.

We got home at 3:00 AM and instead of going right to bed,

we had some cleaning up to do.

There was blood EVERYWHERE. haha

Everywhere he went before getting in the car, blood followed.

Anyway,

he ended up getting eight stitches.

and they stitched up the vein that was squirting out all the blood as well ;)

graphic words? Yes.

Not even Five days later,

Kali started getting a fever.

By 5 am, she woke up with a fever of 103.

Hence,

another trip to the ER.

Remember how I said she was really Colicky?

She's not.

They found out in the ER that she had a UTI

 (Urinary Tract Infection)

They sent us on our way with a Prescription for Antibiotics.

within a few days,

Kali was a totally different baby.

She's been so happy and laughs WAY more now.

She only cries when she's tired or Hungry....or going to the bathroom. [more on that later as well]

It's apparant to me that she's had the UTI for WAY longer than she had the fever.

Not gonna lie,

I was feeling really bitter towards her Pediatrician and all the people that were saying she was colicky.

I KNEW there was something else going on. I could tell.

Which is why I kept taking her to the Dr.

Anyway,

a couple of weeks after the ER visit,

(this last tuesday),

Her Pediatrician called and said that the ER told him about her visit and he highly recommended that we go in to Primary Childrens to get her an Ultrasound and X-Ray.

He said 30-50% of the infants that get UTI's have something called Vesicoureteral Reflux,

which happens when Kali pushes to pee, or if she has a full bladder, some of the Urine goes back up to the kidneys, which brings more bacteria into the kidneys and when she gets infection, that can cause even more problems in the kidneys.

So,

BACK to the hospital we go.

Her appointment was yesterday.

They did the Ultrasound and Kali was good until they turned her to her tummy.

she HATES being on her Tummy. She screamed her head off until they were all done.

That was supposed to be the easy part!

Next was the X-Ray.

What they had to do was put in a catheter and insert some Dye into her bladder so that it would show up on the X-ray.

That was supposed to be the part she screamed.

instead,

She was SO good through the entire procedure.

It was then that I realized that Kalista is a TOUGH little girl,

she is just DANG spoiled. haha

Anyway,

the girl explained to me what would happen if she did have reflux.

You would see it draining to her kidneys.

Sure enough,

the second she started to insert the dye,

you could see it moving back up towards the kidneys.

and Kali would not pee it back out. 

Poor girl. It hurts her to pee, so she was holding it in. 

When the radiologist came in to look at it she explained some more.

They rate the severity between a 1-5.

1 being the lowest where they would just need to give her antibiotics for a while and 5 being where they would need to go in and do surgery.

She said by looking at it right there, it looked like she was at a 3.

She said we would most likely just need to give her an antibiotic for a year and then re-evaluate.

A couple of hours later ,

Her pediatrician called and said the Radiologist had reviewed the X-ray and had decided to move her left Kidney up to a Level 4. Her Right was still at a 3.

So,

he gave us antibiotics and referred us to a Urologist who will determine whether or not she will need surgery or want to do the tests again in a few months.

I'm so nervous.

I've had such mixed emotions.

one minute I'm crying and the next I'm so grateful they caught it early.

My aunt had these same problems when she was little,

they didn't catch it in time and she lost a kidney.

I'm SO grateful they caught it early, I just really am not looking forward to hearing that she'll have to have surgery. The Dr thinks that is most likely what will happen.

How am I going to be able to let them just take my baby, sedate her and cause her pain?

I wish SO MUCH that I could do it for her.

The appointment with the Urologist isn't until October 26th either.

Which means I have almost an entire month to anticipate this.

We just started her on Antibiotics today. I hope those will help her feel better at least.

Colic and teething. They don't mix!

Remember THIS post about Kali having Colic?

and THIS one about rice cereal making her feel better?

Everything was going well,

until a couple days after feeding her cereal.

I started noticing that she was pooping hardly at all.

I also started noticing that when she DID poop, it stunk SO BAD.

I didn't even know a baby could produce something that smells so bad. (haha)

As the days went on,

her bowel movements started becoming little pebbles.

Hence,

Constipation.

The rice cereal was not helping her with the problems she already had with this.

So,

I backed up and started only giving her rice cereal at night.

It still was not making a difference,

and she began getting fussy like she was before.

Good thing I was still breastfeeding at night,

so I hadn't completely dried up.

I decided to just start breastfeeding again.

Only a bottle at night.

with no rice cereal.

Just like I was doing before.

She is still fussy.

It hasn't changed.

I would think it was my breastmilk,

but she started getting fussy before I started breastfeeding full time again.

So we are back to square one.

Along with these symptoms

She was also

Drooling,

throwing up,

congested,

and chewing on EVERYTHING she could.

I was SO SURE that she was teething.

So I called the nurse and she insisted that it was too early and that she just though it was an ear infection.

She said to come in.

Our insurance just changed and co pays are now $40 and her 4 month appointment was in two weeks.

So I asked if there was anyway we could combine those because there was NO WAY I was going to pay $80 in a month. Especially because I was still so sure she was teething and didn't think she needed to go in. I just needed to know what to give her medicine wise!

She let me combine those so we went in yesterday.

Sure enough,

SHE'S TEETHING!

Dumb nurse.

haha I gotta say she is DANG LUCKY that they let me combine the appointments.

I would have been so mad if I lost $40 for them to tell me what I already knew!

Now comes the sad part.

Because it was her 4 month appointment they had to give her shots.

again.

She was already upset and I really really didn't want them to.

I was SO CLOSE to turning them down because I didn't want her to be in anymore pain.

But I ended up giving in because they said I would have had to go back in two week.

I would rather just get it over with.

Needless to say,

when the nurse walked in,

I was already crying and she had to comfort ME!

I'm sorry but I couldn't help it. I hate seeing my baby in pain...and allowing her to be in even more pain is the hardest thing ever.

I'm not kidding when I say that that's the hardest part of being a mom.

I don't remember if I said that before,

but watching my child in pain...I would rather them give ME the dangs shots.

Anyway.

Long story short.

She did scream through the shots.

but they gave me the amount of Tylenol I needed to give her.

That has seemed to help a WHOLE BUNCH.

However,

her Colic is still really bad in the morning until she finally falls asleep for her nap.

oh man I just hope she gets over this soon.

because seeing my baby in pain is the worst kind of torture.

30 DC #30

30. what changed this month and what you hope will happen next month.

Kali started teething!

 

I hope that she'll get her teeth next month!

 

:)

 

and..

I'm done!

30 DC #21

21. something you can’t seem to get over.

My dang Heatburn/Acid reflux.

and my recent obsession with Pinterest.

I'm not kidding.
I started my account like two days ago...

and I'm already addicted.

It's so so bad.

Poor Baby

Last week, especially the weekend,

was a hard one for our little princess.

Since Kali was about two weeks old,

she has been experiencing Acid Reflux.

She throws up constantly.

It worried me for a while that she wasn't gaining weight.

Especially because she would eat,

throw up,

and then act starving again.

She was literally eating every half hour.

As the week went on,

if she was awake,

she was crying.

I hardly got anything done all week

and began to wonder if there was something else wrong with her.

Then,

Thursday night,

she was up every half hour and super fussy.

At about 8 am,

I gave up trying to get anymore sleep and got up.

I fed her and she seemed okay after that.

She was still a little bit fussy, but nothing worse than she'd been all week.

So,

I set her in her bouncer and started doing some Zumba.

She usually loves watching me do that. I am pretty sure it's because I look like a complete moron and she enjoys laughing at me.

This time however,

was different.

She was fussing,

and about 10 minutes into it,

the crying became louder and louder until she was screaming uncontrollably.

It was the saddest cry ever.

I gave up working out and picked her up to try to make her feel better.

It didn't help.

It didn't matter what I did.

I rocked her, bounced her, cuddled her, burped her,

NOTHING.

She was so so upset.

I started to worry a little and after two hours of this,

I called the Dr.

When they heard her crying they told me I needed to come in.

Okay,

I have been to the Doctor so much for her lately and they keep saying that it's just her acid reflux.

So I waste the $20 every visit to just hear them say there is nothing we can do.

But with the way she was crying,

I was really worried that something else was wrong.

Seriously. She went from this adorableness....

and adorable personality,

To uncontrollable crying.

So I packed her in her carseat and went to the Dr.

By the time we got there, she had fallen asleep.

I'm sure from pure exhaustion.

When we got in to the room,

they wanted to weigh her so of course I had to wake her up for that.

Within 30 seconds of waking up,

she was screaming her head off again.

I was pleasantly suprised to find out that she was now 9 pounds 11 ounces.

She has gained almost a pound in less than a month.

That made me feel better about her at least keeping some of her food down.

But it didn't change the fact that she was still obviously in a lot of pain.

After being there for a couple of minutes,

the Dr. Said that it sounded like she had

Pyloric Stenosis.

He said that it's when the muscle in the stomach,

The Pyloris Spinchter,

stays contracted and causes the child to not keep anything down,

to be in a lot of pain,

and throw up a lot.

He sent us to primary childrens so she could have an ultrasound.

I was so relieved.

I felt like we had finally figured out what was wrong with my poor baby.

I felt like we had finally figured out how to make her feel better.

To Fix this problem means surgery.

That would've been hard,

but if it meant Kalista feeling better,

then that's what would have to be done.

When we got there,

they did the ultrasound and

everything was normal.

It wasn't Pyloric Stenosis.

The only good thing about this was that she wasn't going to need surgery.

But that was it.

We still didn't know what it was.

Kali was STILL screaming at this point.

she was still so upset.

SO,

They sent us to the ER.

2 Hours and $170 later,

they concluded that she is just Colicky and her Acid Reflux is really bad.

I don't like that result.

You know why?

Because there is NOTHING we can do to fix it.

Kali just has to sit there and be in pain and there is nothing I can do to get rid of it.

She finally calmed down by around 2:30.

and fell asleep for a while.

When she woke up from that nap...

she was all of the sudden happy again!

(for about a half hour)

Honestly,

the worst thing ever is seeing your child in pain and knowing there is nothing you can do to make them feel better.

We were given Medicine for the reflux,

but it doesn't seem to help.

I've had a few friends offer some tips,

so I'm going to try those and hope they work.

I'm okay not getting sleep.

I planned on that because obviously that comes with having a baby.

I don't care about that.

But I do care about the way she feels.

and she has obviously been in pain!

I bought some Enfamil that was made specifically for spit up.

I gave her some right before we put her to bed,

and kept her sitting up and forward for about 15 minutes...

and this was the result...

She slept for 7 hours.

SEVEN!

That is the longest she has slept since she's been born.

I was SO glad that we found something that helped get her to sleep...

at night.

(at least it's helped the last two nights)

I am still breastfeeding and I only give her formula at night.

I do NOT want to stop breastfeeding.

I really don't.

So we have been trying some other ways of calming her down during the day.

So far,

We've found two things.

Her Car seat,

as long as she is moving in it.

Like being in the car. That usually helps.

Or,

This little contraption...

This thing puts her to sleep in five minutes.

Which is understandable.
She's upright so the acid isn't as bad.

I want my poor baby to start feeling better!!

Still Alive and Kickin!

Okay so It's been a while since I have posted.

We have been SOO busy.

That's even an understatement.

Seriously.

I haven't found one second to breathe until RIGHT NOW!

Since my last post we have-

- Moved into our new house

- Celebrated the 4th of July

-Celebrated my Birthday

- Quit my job

- and had Kali's two month Dr Check up which = SHOTS :'(

New House

YES

We are officially all moved in.

It feels SOOO GOOD to be on our own again.

As much as we appreciated my parents for letting us live with them for FREE,

(we were able to save up a good amount of money because of them!) 

I feel like I can finally be the mother and wife that I want to be.

We finally get to be our own little family <3

We still have some decorating to do.

I'm pretty much done with the main stuff.

I just need to get some more picture for our frames

and then Decorate the Nursery and our bedroom.

I had all of these plans to make Kali's room SOO cute.

I could see the vision in my head.

Princess and the Frog.

BUT,

I'm kind of a cheap skate when it comes to money...

So today, after looking around for some cute bedding for her Crib,

I just gave in to a cheap one at Target.

It's the same colors as the room,

and does go with the theme and all,

but I wanted her room to be more Elegant than it is going to be.

I was hoping for just a bunch of WHITE RUFFLY bedding.

But I didn't want to spend that much on it.

I have recently picked up couponing which doesn't help my 'cheap skate' situation at all either!

haha.

But that's okay.
Kali doesn't really care about her room right now,

so quite frankly,

I'm not going to waste a bunch of money on something that she won't get to even enjoy.

My vision of her nursery could have EASILY been more than $1000.

I'm not gonna do it!

SO,

we'll see how my cheaper version turns out.

and I'll take pictures of the entire house when it's ALL completely done.

4th of July

The Day we left for St George,

We received a package in the mail from my Aunt Julie from Idaho.

She had sent us this ADORABLE Dress for Kali for the 4th of July

Isn't is so cute?

We went to my parents house for a bbq, swimming and fireworks that day.

It was so fun!

Kali met some if her friends for the first time :)

Kali and Luke

Kali and Jada

I love Independence day!

It's one of my favorite holidays.

My Birthday

My birthday was very laid back.

It was fun though and I really enjoyed the day.

My friend Chelsie,

Took me to Iggys for lunch.

It was SOO yummy and so fun to catch up with her.

When Tyson got home from work we went to Dinner with my parents, my Oma and my Aunt MJ.

We went to Cheesecake Factory.

MMMm it was so dang delish.

I love that place immensely.

When we got back to my parents house my little sister had made me a suprise cake.

my favorite cake btw.

haha.

I got lots of gifts!

One of which was a shirt from my sister that i'm wearing right now actually! ha

Quit my Job

YES that is correct.

and it feels SOOO good!

I couldn't stand that place any longer.

They were SOO rude to me during my pregnancy.

Like intolerabley rude about everything.

(and it's the WOMENS CENTER!? Wouldn't you think they'd be more understanding?)

I put my two weeks in the day before my first day back.

and my last day was yesterday.

can I get a HALLELUJIAH!?

I just got a less than part time job with a home health company instead,

which is only about three hours a day.

and I'm pretty sure it's not everyday.

I also am taking care of my Oma three times a week.

you have no idea what a happy camper I am.

I am pretty much a stay at home mom.

Kali comes with me when I take care of my Oma

So life is good!

I seriously love my life.

....except for this next part...

Kali's Dr Appointment

Kali had her Dr appointment on Wednesday.

Saddest day ever.

I'm not even kidding.

She had to get her shots.

She's a good baby.

Especially considering that she has epic Acid Reflux.

When the nurse gave her the THREE shots...

oh my gosh.

I've never heard he cry so hard in her life.

Her face turned red,

along with the not breathing inbetween cries.

It was horrible.

I started crying too.

like I had tears running down my face.

I felt stupid and kept apologizing to the nurse for crying but it was SO sad.

I just hated seeing her go through that.

The shots affected her until today.
She's finally back to her normal self.

She was so fussy yesterday, Thursday and for the rest of the day on Wednesday.

I don't ever want to go through that again.

It was so so sad.

and these last few days,

the only thing that seemed to make her feel better,

was a bath with mommy.

Anyway,

That's the update on our life right now!

We love it :) 

OH PS,

I just made this blog public again.

You can read the post on my other blog if you want the explanation!

:)