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14 Days of Valentines

2012-02-15T21:40:00.000-08:00

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!! <3

We had such an incredible, unforgettable day.

It was by far the all time best Valentines day yet!

Here is Kalista in her cute little Love Day Attire:

and her doing her modelesque pose.

Yes she did this by herself.

She is at the stage where she refuses to look at the camera no matter what I do!

haha

I woke up on the Morning of Valentines day and came upstairs to this lovely, awesome, incredible suprise:

Roses, Chocolates, the sweetest card ever written, and a 1 hour massage at massage envy!

mmmm...I'm getting that massage tomorrow!

My husband knows EXACTLY what I need.

I love that man SOO very much.

***

When I started trying to decided what to get Tyson for Valentines day, I came across many different 14 days of Valentines day gifts and decided this was the perfect idea.

I found a lot of different ones as I searched the internet.

However,

I didn't want to do just one of them,

so I decided that I was going to work up some ideas in my little head and combine some I found/come up with some of my own.

So here was my Valentines day Gift to Tyson:

Day 1

Tyson and I wrote each other while he was on his mission.

I typed some of my letters to him, because I really can't stand my handwriting and I was also able to write them faster. I was busy and knew I was already slacking as it was...so I just typed his letters.

Come to find out,

He hated when I did that.

He didn't feel it was as personal if it was typed.

So for his first gift,

I wrote him a short and sweet letter about how much I appreciated everything he does for Kali and me.

I hate my handwriting.

(best picture I could get on my phone)

Day 2

For the second day,

I taped a [typed] note to our front door so that Tyson would see it when he got home.

Unfortunately,

I forgot to take a picture of this one,

but it said that once he walked in the door,

he wasn't allowed to do anything but relax.

He couldn't talk or even think about work.

I told him that if it took Kali and I leaving and him having the house to himself in order for him to relax,

we could do that.

Apparantly it's hard for him to relax,

because he kept trying to do things that involved work.

and he wouldn't let us leave.

He decided he wanted to go to a movie with his brother and some friends.

Unfortunately they couldn't do it until the next day,

so we spent that night together and he went out with the guys the next day.

(But I still wouldn't let him do an ounce of work)

Day 3

I made him cupcakes!

Day 4

I gave him a heart attack in our hallway...

along with a bunch of little notes of things I liked about him...

Day 5

[please ignore the block calendar in the corner. I'm aware it needed to be changed]

Day 6

A valentines day themed lunch

Two heart shaped PB&J's

Strawberries

4 heart shaped cakes

Doritos (the pinkest chip I could think of..haha)

and pink Lemonade in a pink thermos :):)

Day 7

I made my Valentine a Homemade Valentine :)

Day 8

He has really needed chapstick lately and he kept mentioning it,

So...

Day 9

Since the day we got our car,

Tyson has made it a goal to make sure he cleans the in and outside of the car every weekend.

A few weeks ago,

he mentioned that he wanted to buy all the supplies needed to clean the outside of the car,

so that he didn't have to go to the carwash every weekend,

PLUS,

it would save us money in the long run.

SO....

Day 15

I found him a movie that I knew he would like,

and made a movie night out of it.

Day #11

We had been planning on taking Kali to the Rec. Center all week. We were going to go on Saturday.

It was going to be her first time and I was SO excited because I knew she was going to love it

(which she did!)

Tyson had mentioned when talking about it earlier in the week that his swimsuit no longer fit him.

I was so glad he mentioned it,

because that's what I got him for day #11

He looked DANG good in this swimsuit too.

If I don't say so myself!

Day 12

The note says:

"It's day #12 and just so you know...we were mint to be together"

haha I'm good huh?

...kidding.

(Sorry it's not a very good picture. These were all taken with my phone)

Day 13

His Favorite candybar is Snickers,

so I HAD to figure out a way to incorporate that into a day.

Because I'm not the most CREATIVE person in the world,

this was the best I came up with!

"I thought I should let you know on day 13, that sometimes your "Extra" hot body makes me "Snicker" with delight!"

haha!

Day 14

This is obviously the day I spent the most time preparing for.

I was so stressed out that something would go wrong!

But besides a few minor issues that didn't really matter,

It turned out PERFECT!

I brought Kali to my parents house around 3:00 where my sister agreed to Tend her over night.

Then I went home and immediately began preparing.

I SERIOUSLY had to learn some made double tasking skills,

and I gotta say,

I think I did a pretty good job!

I quickly changed in to some Lingerie I bought specifically for this occasion ;)

dressed up for him and got to work.

I made Sweet and Spicy Pork,

a recipe I got out of a magazine,

Black Bean Salad,

Homemade rolls that are supposed to taste like Texas Roadhouse's Rolls,

and Homemade Cinnamon Honey Butter which was also supposed to taste like Texas Roadhouse.

I topped it off with Welch's Sparkling Grape Juice.
(his favorite)

I turned on some romantice love music,

turned down the lights,

lit some candles,

and

WAH LAH!

(lights were on for this picture)

The pork is missing in this picture, because it was still in the oven!

It turned out SOO good!

It was delish! seriously. I really recommend it for a nice dinner.

(I'll post the recipe at the end of this post :))

Tyson got home JUST as the Pork was about done.

Seriously PERFECT timing.

We had such a good dinner,

and spent the rest of the night together,

topping of the evening with a last minute, late night movie "The Vow"

which was SO good I highly recommend it.

It really was such a romantic wonderful day.

It went perfectly. I was so happy with the way everything went.

We actually were able to spend time together. It was heavenly.

If you've never heard of the 14 days of Valentines day,

look up some of them on Google or try something like this one.

You won't be disappointed with the outcome ;)

***

Now for the delish recipe.

(For the texas roadhouse rolls/honey butter, you can find those on my pinterest! )

Sweet and Spicy Pork with Black Bean Salad

(I'm really sorry I don't have any good pictures of it. I took this one from the magazine. (which by the way was from the Womans day Magazine December 2011 issue)!!)

Ingredients:

1 Tbsp brown sugar

2 tsp ancho or regular chili powder

1 tsp ground cumin

2 Tbsp olive oil

Kosher salt and pepper

1 1/4-pound pork tenderloin

1 15-oz can black beans, rinsed

1 pint grape tomatoes, halved

3 scallions, thinly sliced

1 jalapeno (seeded for less heat), finely chopped

1 Tbsp red wine vinegar

1/2 cup fresh cilantro, chopped

1. Heat oven to 425 degrees F. Line a baking sheet with foil or parchment paper. In a small bowl, combine the sugar, chili powder, cumin, 1 Tbsp oil, 1/2 tsp salt and 1/4 tsp pepper.

2. Rub the spice mixture all over the pork, place on the prepared baking sheet, and roast until the pork registers 145 degrees F., 18-22 minutes. Let rest for at least 5 minutes before slicing.

3. Meanwhile, in a large bowl, toss together the beans, tomatoes, scallions, jalapeno, vinegar, remaining Tbsp oil, 1/2 tsp salt and 1/4 tsp pepper; fold in the cilantro. Serve with the pork.

Kali's Follow up Doctor Appointment

2012-02-15T20:06:00.000-08:00

Kali had her Follow up appointment with her Urologist today.

We are happy to announce that she is doing AWESOME!

She is a completely different baby.

They did an ultrasound and it looked great.

We didn't even have to schedule another appointment!

Halle freaking lujah!

She was REALLY mad that she had to be kept still during her ultrasound,

but seemed to forgive everyone when she was given her FIRST SUCKER EVER!

(Because I'm really paranoid about her getting bad teeth, I made sure it was sugar free. ha. No sugar for my baby!)

So we're all very happy campers over here!!

Kali is such a different baby.
She is so much happier.

I just LOVE the stage she is at right now.

I seriously have so much dang fun with this little munchkin!

Kalista is 9 months old!!

2012-02-09T18:02:00.000-08:00

I can't believe I've been able to snuggle play and enjoy my little princess for as long as I carried her in my belly!

(welll..it'll be 9 months on saturday ;))

At Nine Months Old Kali:

-Weighs 16 pounds 9 Ounces, which is the 15th percentile for her age

- Is 28 inches long (she's grown 3 inches since last month!!), which is the 80th percentile for her height. TALL baby!

-has learned to crawl and crawls all over the place (this makes for a happier baby!!)

(This was the day she started crawling. She's a lot quicker than this now!)

-Likes to eat the same food as us...I swear it makes her feel like an adult. She gets mad if we feed her something different than what we're eating. Good thing the Doctor recommended she start eating normal food!

-Stands up on everything and walks while holding on to something

-is very high maintenanced and thinks she owns the world (which most of the time...she does.
Especally at Oma, Opas, Grandma, Grandpas and when Daddy comes home

-Won't go to sleep without her binky...but that's usually the only time she wants it

- Plays around in her crib, standing up, screaming (not crying..playing) and talking for about 10-20 minutes before falling asleep both during nap time AND bedtime.

-She says "yeah" when we ask her a question...it could very well be a coincedence but it's really funny

-She loves Dogs

-She loves Daddy and starts looking for him the minute the front door opens

-She already loves the stairs and crawls up them SUPER fast. We really gotta get a gate...Good thing I've been able to notice her escape before she falls

-Has a major temper already (oh crap.) She Clenches her fists really tight, her face turns red, and she grunts when she doesn't get her way.

-She Growls a lot, sometimes along with her temper

-She's beginning to learn the 'If I drop something, mommy or daddy will pick it up' game and does it with almost everything

-Is just now developing a TINY BIT of stranger danger. Only to certain people and all she does is look at them and get shy by burying her face in my chest. But she will still go to anyone that wants to hold her.

-When I pick her up from being babysat at my parents house, she looks at me, starts whining and reaches for me. It always makes me feel really good ;)

-She gives the best Eskimo Kisses you'll ever see in your life...

and finally,

-She is my angel. I really don't know how I'd live without her.

We love you Kalista Jean!!

First Visit to the Zoo!

2012-01-28T19:38:00.000-08:00

Today we decided to take Kali to the zoo.I was SO excited to take her and I wasn't disappointed when we went.

Seriously,

the Zoo is fun when you're a kid,

but watching how excited your OWN Kid gets when you go...

is so much better :)

She loved it.

and so did we!

Neither Tyson or I have been to the Zoo in a really long time.

It seriously is amazing to see some of those animals up close.

The greatest part was seeing Kali so mesmerized by the animals.

She liked them all,

but her favorite by FAR was the monkeys.

Every time we saw one,

she would stare at them forever as they would hang and jump from branch to branch.

We spent most of our time watching them.

They are pretty incredible.

It's awesome to see what they can do.

Here she is in action with one of her little new found friends:

and some pictures:

You can't see Kali very well in this one cause she's laying down with a bottle ;)

I love my little family <3

Kali is 8 months old!

2012-01-12T17:45:00.000-08:00

It's so weird to think.

I cannot even begin to understand where these last 8 months have gone.

It feels like last week that Kali took her first breaths and I saw her for the first time.

But at the same time,

I feel like she has always been in my life and I can't imagine how I survived without her cute little smile every day.

Her and her Daddy are seriously the ONLY things I live and breath for.

How I survived without either or them,

I will never know.

At 8 months old:

-She has almost figured out how to sign 'milk' with her little fist. I just barely started teaching her last week. I should have done it earlier, but I kept forgetting to stick to it until just last week. She signs it every once in a while, but I don't think she understands what it means yet.

-She knows how to completely self feed now

-She claps

-She plays peek a boo

-She covers her ears when I sing. haha

-She is very very high maintenanced

-She fake cries, more than she real cries and she thinks we believe her when she's faking it. haha

-She now sits in the real bathtub. We don't use her baby bathtub anymore *sniff*

-She takes at least 2 naps a day and if they're not AT LEAST an hour and a half long, she becomes little miss grumpy pants

-She [usually] sleeps about 13 hours a night; through the night

-She's well on her way to crawling and is constantly pulling herself to the crawling position.

-She is now completely, 100% daddys girl.

-She is beginning to tolerate her car seat...for the most part

We love you Kalista Jean!! <3<3

Christmas/New Year

2012-01-03T17:23:00.000-08:00

First off,

Happy New Year!!

Last year was great,

the best part being the birth of our Beautiful Kali.

Now to making it another great year to remember!

Christmas was so fun!

definitely one of the best Christmases ever!

It all started with Kali's first Visit to Santa!

She absolutely LOVED him.

I was so happy to see her enjoy him so much.

When we first put her on his lap,

she just stared at him...

then she looked over at us and began smiling really big!

Complete with holding his fingers and all ;)

I sure love her.

Next was the Pixton Christmas party.

(Tyson's moms family)

Santa was there as well,

but I don't have a picture :(

I do Have Kali in her cute santa outfit though :)

The month went on with,

My sister coming home for the Holidays from Texas!

We got together right after she got here,

and made chocolate covered Cake bites!

mmm...

so Delish.

Then on to the rest of the partys...

With Santa at the DeMie Christmas Eve party.

/\ This was on Christmas Eve Eve.

On Christmas Eve,

we ended up at the Car Dealership...

and Tyson bought me my Christmas present!

You have no idea how much I love this car!

Christmas was so much fun with Kali!

We had to wake her up early,

because we were going to my parents house for breakfast.

Here's how much Santa spoiled this child...

She had so much fun!

The presents didn't stop there though...

We went to my parents house,

and she was overwhelmed with gifts there as well.

This was my favorite of the gifts they gave her.

This horse sings and prances.

It's so cute.

My little sister also gave her a really cute santa dressed monkey.

That was my other favorite,

but I forgot to take a picture :S

Dustin, Andrea and Avery came over the day after Christmas,

and gave Kali 4 of the Original Christmas Classic movies.

I can't WAIT until she gets into movies more,

because I LOVED those growing up.

They also gave us a gift card to Zupas, which we used that day.

haha

Anyway.

We had an INCREDIBLE Christmas!

I can't end without saying that I'm so grateful for the birth of Our Savior.

He's the real meaning of Christmas and I really felt the Spirit this year.

It was a wonderful month.

***

We just kept it low key for new years eve.

We spent the Evening with my parents with Pizza, Games and Movies.

Tyson and I made a New years Resolution this year that we started immediately.

We want to lose weight.

We're doing Isogenix.

It's SO tough,

but as long as I keep my eye on the prize,

I think I'll make it.

Tyson is doing way better than me :)

I'm going to make another 101 goals in 1001 days as well.

I failed miserabely with the one I was doing on my other blog.

But I WILL do better with this one :)

That post to come...

Kalista is 7 months old!

2011-12-17T11:50:00.000-08:00

This post is almost a week late,

SORRRYY.

Kali is 7 months old!

I can hardly believe it.

She's such a perfect, beautiful little girl.

I can't even begin to explain how much I adore her.

At 7 months old:

-She has two bottom teeth

-She screams super loud whenever she's playing and strangers that don't know her, think she's crying when she does it. But she's not. ha

-She tries hard to sing

-She is obsessed with her Daddy. She goes crazy when he comes home from work...I'm pretty much chopped liver when he's around and she wants nothing to do with me.

-She loves it when when I do her hair. It's the only time that she willingly holds still. (I can't put it in a ponytail yet, but I can create some awesome hairstyles. haha)

-She is slowly starting to understand how to move to grab things. She's not crawling yet though!

-She loves the little puff cereal, any flavor.

-Whenever I try to a- change her diaper or b- put her in her car seat. I can almost always expect a fit. No joke she clenches her fists so hard that her hands start to shake, she holds her breath until she turns red and then busts out into a full on scream until I'm done changing her, or I'm holding her car seat. yeah. not sure if that's normal behavior for a 7 month old or if she's just extremely spoiled!

-She usually talks herself to sleep in the car, during nap time, or bedtime.

-She's a curious girl and wants to test out everything she can get her hands on...with her mouth.

-She still loves music

-She loves when I'm singing to her...even if it sounds like a dying cat.

-She loves things that light up.

-She's finally getting some Chub!

-She loves sitting in the shopping cart.

-If we tell her to 'shake her booty', she'll kick her legs and bounce up and down. haha it's so cute

-She loves to read books

-She doesn't care if I put a headband on her, but when we're in the car, she'll play with them...which causes them to stretch out, so I'll randomly find her with the headband around her eyes. She doesn't even cry when it happens either. I have to just find her that way. hahaha

Surgery.

2011-12-09T19:35:00.000-08:00

So,

Kali's surgery was Tuesday.

We woke up that morning to a happy girl [like always],

Smiling and cooing, talking to us both.

We got ready for the day,

knowing that we had to be to PCMC by noon.

We tried to keep her comfortable,

while distracting her from the fact that she could not have anything to eat until after surgery.

I packed all of the things we would need,

and we headed out the door to the Hospital.

I talked with Tyson a bit on the way there about how,

even though her pediatrician said that her surgery was simple and only involved inserting a catheter and letting out small beads,

The paperwork I got in the mail,

that I had only read the day before (oops),

said that they were doing an incision.

I was a little bit worried,

but not too much because I was just going to believe what an actual person told me,

not some dumb paper.

When we arrived,

we sat in the waiting room for them to do Kali's checkup to make sure she was healthy for the surgery.

She was peacefully asleep while we waited.

I just kept thinking that the poor girl had no idea what was about to happen.

When they called her name,

we had to wake her up while they weighed her, checked her,

and gave us a gown to change her in.

Afterwards,

The nurse walked us to another waiting room,

where we'd wait until it was time for her to go back.

We waited there while I cuddled and kissed the heck out of her

and she played with her Daddy...

(who obviously is a lot less annoying. haha)

and before we knew it,

her Urologist was walking up to us.

She began explaining the procedure to us.

This is where I learned that they were,

indeed,

doing an incision.

I wasn't happy about it to say the least,

and pretty upset about the fact that no one told me this until now!

After she finished explaining everything,

she left and the anesthesiologist came in.

He told us that he was going give her a mask to put her to sleep,

then do what they call a Cottle (which is similar to an epidural)

to help numb the area so that she wouldn't be in pain when she woke up.

That is when they would insert the I.V.,

and give her a breathing tube as well as a catheter.

When he was done explaining everything to us,

he walked us back to the furthest point we could go.

I didn't want to let go of my baby. I was holding back tears.

She was a little fussy and us both kissing her wasn't helping that.

Then,

After giving myself a silent pep talk,

I handed her over to the anesthesiologist,

a guy I had just barely met,

who I knew was going to take her to a group of people,

Who would cause her pain..

(Deep down I knew it was for the best, but at a time like this,

all I could think about was how much I despised everything about the situation)

I watched as he turned the corner with my daughter in his arms

and the last thing I saw was her grabbing at his mask.

That is when I burst into tears.

It was hard to hold back and honestly,

I could have cried a lot harder than I did...

I was still holding it in a WHOLE bunch!

Tyson was incredible through all of this.

He is my rock and held me while I cried.

We were then led to yet another waiting room.

I couldn't hold it in for very long so we quickly decided to go for a walk.

We ended up going to our car,

and I cried while we prayed for comfort and Kali's safety.

We then walked hand in hand back to the waiting room

where we waited for two hours until finally

the Urologist came in and told us everything went well.

10 minutes later,

they called for us and said that only one of us could go back to the ICU to see her.

She had just woken up.

Tyson let me.

again, I love him SO MUCH.

He asked me to send him a picture...

and this was the only one I could take before picking her up and trying to comfort my poor baby who had no idea what was going on.

Her whole face seemed so swollen and her was cry the most heartbreaking thing I've ever heard.

She seemed miserable.

Here's the battle wound.
I don't know if you can see them both but she will have both of those tubes coming out of her for a week. It's how she pees for now.

Very shortly after this,

We were moved to the room we would be staying in for the remainder of our stay.

That is when we met with Tyson.

(This girl ROCKED at her job. I loved her. She was my favorite CNA there by far.)

Once we got some food into Kali's belly...which took forever since she couldn't eat right after,

She began acting very close to her normal self.

She even sat up, played with some toys and smiled a little!

I was so happy that she seemed okay.

...Then,

about an hour later,

her Cottle began to wear off.

Even though she had Toradol AND Oxycodone,

she still seemed in pain.

Her cry was crushing me.

Her voice was gone too because of the breathing tube and it killed me to see her that way.

After holding her, while rocking her in the chair and singing her some songs...

she finally fell asleep.

After about 10 minutes,

I decided to try to lay her in the crib.

She stayed asleep for about a minute.

Then woke right up.

She had a very difficult night.

I eventually,

put her in her stoller and we seriously walked around the entire hospital...

then when we got back to our room,

she fell asleep.

She slept that way in the stroller for half the night,

then woke up and after another couple hours of rocking, coaxing and trying to get her to sleep,

she spent the rest in the crib.

I probably had 3 hours of sleep.

Kali maybe had 5 or 6?

They almost kept us there another night because of how fussy she was,

but that morning she made up for it and was in such a good mood.

We ended up leaving around 4:00 pm.

The next night went pretty well.

She only woke up twice.

(usually she doesn't wake up at all, but considering the circumstances,

she did awesome).

Last night however,

was a different story and it's been like this ever since.

She was awake a good majority of the night.

I had to rock her and tickle her back until she fell asleep.

She was sleeping with us because she would wake up if one of us wasn't touching her.

But by about 3 am...

she wouldn't go back to sleep.

She was kicking us both.

HARD for an almost 7 month old btw.

ha.

She has been SO tired all day because of that,

but again,

she won't sleep unless we're touching her.

Hence,

this picture...

She's been rubbing her eyes,

and acting so tired,

but will NOT fall asleep unless she's touching us.

Tyson had her sitting on the floor and was trying to talk to her...

and she put her head on his..and was asleep almost instantaneously.

Poor girl.

I hope she starts feeling better cause it's killing me to see her so sick.

No Offense...

2011-11-30T16:21:00.000-08:00

I've had some experiences these last few months that have kind of opened my eyes.

They've made me more aware of the mean things I've said or done in my life.

First I want to say that I've never in my life ever done something to intentionally hurt another person.

EVER

I know how it feels to be hurt or offended by somone.

With that being said,

I know that I have hurt other people.

I'm sure there's people out there that i've hurt of offended,

that I don't even know about.

This post is mostly for those people.

It's emotionally draining to realize the pain or hurt I've caused others.

Realizing things that I've done is hard.

I feel so so mean.

a few weeks ago,

I decided to try apologizing to one of those people.

It didn't go as I'd hoped.

It's taken me until now,

to decide to move on to the next person.

My goal is to at least clear my conscience.

The other person can decide whether or not they accept my sincere apology.

I can't control that if they do or not.

(which is another lesson I've learned as of late.)

I just want to apologize right now to everyone that I may have hurt or offended.

The times that I have been intentionally rude,

are the times I was hurt or offended myself,

and trying to protect my feelings.

That's not an excuse though and that is why I am apologizing.

I am sorry.

If I've offended you. I am sorry.

I really try to be a good person,

but I've realized recently that I have been very selfish when it comes to others feelings.

I don't know how it's possible to apologize to those I am not aware that I've offended besides this.

So I hope this post does something.

As for now,

I'm on a mission to correct my wrongs.

It's going to take a while though.

Because today I resumed my mission on someone else,

and in just 15 minutes I had cried enough tears to fill a bathtub.

But this person...

is the most forgiving person.

The most incredible person.

and the most perfect husband.

and that's why I married him.

Yeah. He's been a victim of my selfish mean words.

Yet, he still acts like I'm perfect.

I think I married the only man in the world that is patient enough to put up with me,

and I love him so much.

I just hope I can somehow forget the things I've done to him.

Because that's what is holding me back.

Happy Thanksgiving!

2011-11-26T11:27:00.000-08:00

Kali with her cousin Jada. Kali less than a month older than Jada.

They're going to be great friends!

Thanksgiving this year was so fun,

but SO busy!!

We woke up at 8:00 am.

and if you know us at all,
when Tyson has a day off...

we sleep until like...10:30.

I know.

don't judge.

haha

Anyway,

We went to Walmart because Tyson wanted to find out what time everyone could start lining up for PS3's. He wants one so bad. ha He keeps saying it's because of the blue ray, but we both know he is a gaming nerd.

So,

they said 5:00 pm.

Then we stopped at my parents house so I could shower my Oma,

then left from there right to Tyson's grandmas house for THANKSGIVING!

It was delish, but we couldn't stay there for as long as we wanted to.

(let me just say that I knew Tyson was the one I was supposed to marry when, at family get togethers, they play board games. Yes. I'm obsessed! haha)

We had to leave at 2:30,

because my Aunt was having thanksgiving at her house as well.

We decided after this that we are going to switch families every year.

We're not doing both families every year anymore because we don't really actually get to spend time with either of them because we're in a rush to go to the next place.

Ridiculous.

Anyway,

we were there for about the same amount of time we were at his grandmas,

because at 4:15,

we had to leave because Tyson wanted to go stand in line at walmart.

of course my brother wanted to come with us, because he's just as big of a nerd as my husband.

They were so worried that we wouldn't get a PS3 because there were only 50...

we got there at 4:58 (which stressed him the heck out...)

and when we got in line...

It was apparant, we weren't late.

We were the first in line.

People didn't start showing up until around 7.

I gotta say.

Sitting in line for 5 hours was just...lovely.

hahaha

I found some books throughout the store to read to Kali,

so she would stay entertained.

She's a book worm like her mama.

After a few hours,

Kali had enough and my mom ended up taking her for the rest of the time.

Long story short,

Tyson got his PS3 and according to him,

his life is now complete.

He said "my wife, daughter and a PS3 is all I need"

I'll remember that next year ;)

haha

Happy Thanksgiving Everyone!

I'm grateful for my life, family and everything.

seriously.

We couldn't be more blessed.

Mixed Emotions

2011-11-13T21:38:00.000-08:00

This was Kali when I told her that she won't be getting anymore UTI's after December 6th

(at least for a LONG time.)

No obviously she really has no idea what's going on.

I just like this picture :)

We talked to the Urologist last week.

and Kali does indeed need surgery.

It's Scheduled for December 6th.

I'm SOO happy that she is finally going to get this dealt with.

Bye Bye UTI's!

On the other hand,

I'm an emotional wreck.

Before they actually said she needed surgery,

I was hoping for it because it meant my daughter would no longer have to deal with this horrible stuff.

and yeah I knew that it would be so sad,

but now that it's actually happening,

I'm starting to get really scared.

I'm so glad that this isn't any major surgery,

because I'm pretty sure I would die if it was.

I don't think I'd be able to handle it.

I can't even stand to think about handing Kali over to the Doctor and not being there for her through the entire thing.

I have to sit there for who knows how long,

while I know that my daughter has been put to sleep and being worked on.

It's going to kill me.

I can't even imagine how my parents felt when my little baby brother had to have Open heart surgery.

Or my cousins when their new baby daughter had to have brain surgery.

I'm so grateful that Kali's problems aren't more serious than this...

but I gotta say,

I'm a baby and I'm still going to worry like crazy until she is back in my arms and feeling better.

Because they are working on both sides and she's so little,

she has to stay there over night and then have 2 tubes (which I'm assuming are catheters...) coming out of her for a week.

They wanted to schedule the surgery for the December 21st.

Can you imagine?? She would still be recovering on Christmas.

So glad they changed it to the 6th.

So,

I'm having mixed emotions about this,

but all in all I'm SO GRATEFUL that this problem is fixable.

and I'm happy that Surgery will help her feel all better.

Kalista is 6 Months old

2011-11-11T15:37:00.000-08:00

Kalista is 6 months old!! it baffles me how fast this happened.

I can't believe it's already been half a year!

Where the heck did the time go?

I seriously don't know how this happened.

At 6 months old

-She loves playing with her feet.

-She sits up on her own.

-Her favorite food is Sweet Potatoes

-She HATES any kind of fruit.

-Everytime she laughs, she gets the hiccups

-Her laugh is the most incredible sound I've ever heard

-She finally has some rolls on that little body of hers.

-Everytime I'm eating something, she'll watch it go from the plate to my mouth

-She thinks the words "num num" are the funniest words in the entire world

-She fights me when I try to lay her down in her carseat or bath tub. She insists on sitting up in the bath tub now.

-Every night we take her out of the bathtub, she screams bloody murder until we get her pajamas on and her bottle in her mouth.

-She's already talking our ears off. When i'm sitting in the car and I hear her talking, I'll mute the radio just so I can enjoy that sweet little voice of hers.

-She pretty much has everyone in her life wrapped around her finger.

-She's definitely teething

-She constantly needs a new scenery

-She makes the "Ah" sound everytime she yawns. haha

-She is so very tickleish now, it's one of my favorite things

-She thinks it's funny when I sing and dance for her aka: make a fool of myself.

She is my idea of heaven.

Halloween

2011-11-05T20:22:00.000-07:00

Kali was a Ladybug for halloween.

The poor girls first Halloween was not a pleasant one though.

She slept in until 11:30, which I thought was so awesome...

until she woke up and I noticed how different she seemed to be acting.

She was just not herself.

She kept grunting and moaning.

She was smiling and not crying,

but she was obviously not feeling well.

She wasn't her normal, upbeat, crazy self.

I shower my Oma three times a week,

so we went there and usually when I'm doing that Kali is sitting in her carseat,

squirming, jabbering and getting mad that I'm making her sit in her carseat.

But this day,

she just sat there and stared at me.

She didn't move at all.

I almost wanted to cry because she looked so miserable.

When we got home,

I took her out of her carseat and immediately could tell she had a fever.

I took her temperature and it was 101.4.

I called the Dr and they wanted to see her right then.

So we drove to the dr and they decided to draw her urine to see if she had another Urinary Tract Infection.

He also looked in her ears.

My poor baby screamed so hard. I've never ever heard Kali cry like she did then.

She was holding her breath and everything.

She's NEVER done that.

The first results for the UTI came back negative,

so he just told me that it was probably just a little virus but to call him if her fever didn't leave in three days, but that they were going to Culture her urine and he would let us know if anything changed

I took her home and cuddled her for the rest of the evening.

She was miserable.

That is how she spent her Halloween.

The next day,

her Doctor called and said that after only a day,

the culture ended up saying that she does indeed have a UTI.

He called back the next day saying this infection was immune to the antibiotic she was on.

so he switched her antiobiotic again.

We are now waiting for her Urologist to call us telling us whether or not she'll need surgery.

To be honest,

I'm pretty set on surgery.

I'm SO not looking forward to it,

but with the way this is all going,

Kali is going to end up immune to every single dang antibiotic,

and she's going to keep getting these infections.

I have done everything in my power to try to prevent these...

I'm just so worried about her at this point.

Anyway.

Haha. This was kind of a pathetic excuse for a Halloween post.

but that is pretty much how it went.

craziness

2011-10-26T21:22:00.000-07:00

After a couple months of pulling my hair out,

I am officially working for that home health job.

I've been working there for about a month,

but just barely got on my own.

Right after they hired me,

we realized my CNA license had expired in January.

Usually you just have to send in a form showing that you worked at least 100 hours in a year

and they renew it.

But if you don't do that within 30 days after it's expired,

you have to take the test all over again.

YEAH.

It's $70 to take the test and let me tell you how ridiculous they make this process.

I had to call the Nursing assistant registry to tell them I needed to renew my license.

Because it's been over 30 days I had to retake the test.

SO instead of just paying for it over the phone, or in person,

they make you send the payment in the mail.

That's all the lady I talked to said.

She said to send the payment of $70 in the mail,

and they would send back the list of testing centers and my testing voucher.

So,

I wrote a check and sent it in the mail,

a few days later I received a letter saying that they didn't accept checks.

Call me dumb, but the only other form of payment I knew about through mail was cash.

I didn't want to send $70 cash, but that was all I could think of.

So I sent that.

FINALLY,

even though they called me and said that they don't usually accept cash, but they would this time (this was when I heard about cashiers check...or whatever that's called),

they finally sent me the vouchers.

THEN,

I had to set up a time to take my test.

There were two seperate ones...and the first one wasn't for two weeks and the other one wasn't until two weeks after that.

After taking them both and finally passing them

(Oh yeah..they send the results in the mail too...)

I was able to start my job.

Can I Just say that i absolutely LOVE it?

I don't have co-workers.

It's absolute heaven!

I don't have to deal with rude, inconsiderate people that like to cause problems.

All I need to worry about is making my patients happy.

I love my patients too.

and you wanna know the best of the best part?

The management there is AWESOME!

They, unlike the management at my previous job, don't hunger for control.

They are so awesome and so laid back.

Obviously they would crack down on someone if they weren't performing their job well.

In other words,

If they were receiving negative feedback, or complaints from their patients.

AND they always make sure they show the CNA's appreciation.

They always let the CNA's know that if it wasn't for their hard work,

things would not be going as well.

I gotta say,

I am so so bitter about my last job that I'm really close to writing in to the head of the hospital.

I'm not kidding. I am still so offended and every time I think about it,

I just cannot believe how badly I was treated.

I'm just so glad I was able to get away from them.

I NEVER have to see any of those jerks again!!

My new job is incredible.

I love it and I actually feel like I get to make a difference in someone's life.

These people actually rely on ME to get to bed at night

(since I'm working nights).

I just have to say that I've never found a job more perfect for me.

Especially when i'm a mom.

I work 2- 2/12 hours at the most.

It's so amazing.

If you have someone in your life that is in need of home health or hospice,

let me know and I'll hook you up with the best place around!

****

In other news,

Kali had her Urologist appointment on the 10th.

I know that was a while ago but I am just now finding a few minutes to write it.

Results.

Let's just say I'm a little annoyed that we had to pay $55 dollars for them to tell us what we were told at the very beginning of this whole ordeal.

They are going to put Kali on Antibiotics for a year and test it again.

If she hasn't grown out of it by then,

they are going to do surgery.

She's too little for them to determine whether or not she is going to grow out of it.

They said that a little less thatn 50% of kids do.
So we'll see.

They said that if she get's another UTI before that though,

they will have to do surgery right then.

So...

I'm REALLY paranoid.

Like,

extremely.

This week Kali has had a very very very slight fever.

and she's been really fussy.

SO I took her in.

I really hope she doesn't get another one because I really don't want her to have surgery.

It would be so nice if she just grew out of it.

I would be SOO glad!

***

OH yeah...

Tyson got a $1 raise last week :)

Model Search

2011-10-14T15:24:00.000-07:00

I entered Kalista into a model search for a Baby Store.

They win based on how many likes HER PICTURE receives on their Facebook page.

So I have a favor to ask of all of my followers.

Will you PLEASE go HERE and like their page first, (the vote doesn't count unless you're a fan of their page)

and then go to Kali's picture and Like it?

I would be forever grateful.

I am hoping to get to 200 likes!!

5 Months Old Already??

2011-10-11T08:26:00.000-07:00

Yes,

Kalista is already five months old!

Although this past month has flown by,

she has progressed a lot!

At 5 months old Kali:

- Has mastered rolling over and shockingly is trying to roll from her back to her tummy. She hates being on her belly so it suprised me that she would do that.

-LOVES playing with her toys and will put almost everything in her mouth.

-Will actually lay on a blanket and play without crying. In otherwords, I can now put her down without her screaming like she is going to die! yay!

-Will always fall asleep if you put her in this position:

Let me elaborate more about this position.

When she is being fussy and is obviously very tired, if I lay her on her belly (which she usually hates her belly so this is even more wierd), with her head facing down in between your legs and pat her back, she'll immediately calm down and fall asleep.

My mom discovered this. It's the funniest thing and I Laugh everytime. It's so wierd.

my daughter is strange. haha

-She is starting to hold her bottle all by herself.
she's pretty much mastered it.

-Is beginning to be more of a mommys girl.
there's times when someone will go to hold her and she'll turn towards me.
I'm not complaining :)

- She is starting to LOVE binkys

- She really likes books and loves it when you read to her.

-Talks and Talks all of the time.

-she is, at least for the past few nights, sleeping through the night.

At least 9 hours.

Then, when she does wake up, she'll take a bottle and go back to sleep for another 4!

-Will try her hardest to sit up when you lay her down, especially in her car seat.

-and I know I mention this a lot, but I'm not kidding when I say she LOVES outside. Utah weather has been really cold lately, but that doesn't stop her!

she's not a fan of her cold weather clothes though...

This is Kali inside.

and this is Kali outside.

I love this baby so much!

She is so much fun and every night that I go to bed,

the thing I look forward to the most is waking up to her talking or yelling for me to come play with her. (this happens when she wakes up for good, after sleeping those extra four hours.)

It's turned me in to a morning person :)

Family Pictures

2011-10-07T21:28:00.000-07:00

We had Family Pictures done in August.

Kali was still a super fussy baby at this point, so I'm suprised that they turned out!

Then again,

my incredible friend and roomate from Utah State did them,

so I should have known they would.

We're probably going to do more of our family in a couple of weeks.

We didn't have very much time that day because the sun went down really quickly.

and of course,

my favorite part...

and finally,

My all time VERY favorite one.

Although I really badly wanted to,

I didn't post all of the pictures, Just my top favorites.

Can you tell it was hard to pick?

Mark my words when I say,

you will be seeing some of these pictures in future posts.

(and of course some that I didn't post.)

Photos done by Elicia Launi photography.

Medical Bills, I know you can't stay away. But the feeling isn't mutual.

2011-10-03T18:55:00.000-07:00

Kali has yet ANOTHER UTI.

The antibiotic she was on,

wasn't helping.

Yeah.

Different Bacteria or something.

On a positive note,

{finally},

There was a cancellation at the urologist and Kali's appointment was moved to October 10th.

Hallelujiah.

Home Sweet Hospital

2011-09-30T12:54:00.000-07:00

The last few weeks have been ridiculous to say the least.

I swear it's been just one thing after another.

I have come to the realization that the Hospital is our second home.

Let me start off with explaining why I've been MIA as of late.

Our computer broke.

Sad story. I am so sad about it.

BUT,

We don't want to get a new one until we can get a MAC.

I'm SOOO done with HP.

SO,

We're $300 dollars away from it.

We're trying to sell our 1998 Chevy Lumina.

That will help us get that extra $300 quick!

If you are looking to buy a car,

email me and I'll give you some more info!

It's a great car and runs like a champ.

We just don't need it anymore.

Anyway,

Back to the Hospital stuff.

The day our computer broke,

Tyson cut his finger open.

[Before you go any further, I am posting the picture on here. So if you don't want to see what his poor pinky looked like, scroll past the first pic ;)]

It was about 11:00 P.M when this happened

and when I came downstairs, there was blood all over the bathroom.

[for his sake, I won't go in to detail on how this happened. He would be mad at me. ha]

I almost had a heart attack.

I thought my husband was bleeding to death. haha

Then, when I realized it was his finger,

I calmed down a little...but it still freaked me out!

Anyway,

I had to get Kali out of her Crib and we made a late night trip to the ER.

Now, here are the pictures:

Before the stitches.

After the stitches.

Luckily, Kali slept through the entire visit.

We got home at 3:00 AM and instead of going right to bed,

we had some cleaning up to do.

There was blood EVERYWHERE. haha

Everywhere he went before getting in the car, blood followed.

Anyway,

he ended up getting eight stitches.

and they stitched up the vein that was squirting out all the blood as well ;)

graphic words? Yes.

Not even Five days later,

Kali started getting a fever.

By 5 am, she woke up with a fever of 103.

Hence,

another trip to the ER.

Remember how I said she was really Colicky?

She's not.

They found out in the ER that she had a UTI

(Urinary Tract Infection)

They sent us on our way with a Prescription for Antibiotics.

within a few days,

Kali was a totally different baby.

She's been so happy and laughs WAY more now.

She only cries when she's tired or Hungry....or going to the bathroom. [more on that later as well]

It's apparant to me that she's had the UTI for WAY longer than she had the fever.

Not gonna lie,

I was feeling really bitter towards her Pediatrician and all the people that were saying she was colicky.

I KNEW there was something else going on. I could tell.

Which is why I kept taking her to the Dr.

Anyway,

a couple of weeks after the ER visit,

(this last tuesday),

Her Pediatrician called and said that the ER told him about her visit and he highly recommended that we go in to Primary Childrens to get her an Ultrasound and X-Ray.

He said 30-50% of the infants that get UTI's have something called Vesicoureteral Reflux,

which happens when Kali pushes to pee, or if she has a full bladder, some of the Urine goes back up to the kidneys, which brings more bacteria into the kidneys and when she gets infection, that can cause even more problems in the kidneys.

So,

BACK to the hospital we go.

Her appointment was yesterday.

They did the Ultrasound and Kali was good until they turned her to her tummy.

she HATES being on her Tummy. She screamed her head off until they were all done.

That was supposed to be the easy part!

Next was the X-Ray.

What they had to do was put in a catheter and insert some Dye into her bladder so that it would show up on the X-ray.

That was supposed to be the part she screamed.

instead,

She was SO good through the entire procedure.

It was then that I realized that Kalista is a TOUGH little girl,

she is just DANG spoiled. haha

Anyway,

the girl explained to me what would happen if she did have reflux.

You would see it draining to her kidneys.

Sure enough,

the second she started to insert the dye,

you could see it moving back up towards the kidneys.

and Kali would not pee it back out.

Poor girl. It hurts her to pee, so she was holding it in.

When the radiologist came in to look at it she explained some more.

They rate the severity between a 1-5.

1 being the lowest where they would just need to give her antibiotics for a while and 5 being where they would need to go in and do surgery.

She said by looking at it right there, it looked like she was at a 3.

She said we would most likely just need to give her an antibiotic for a year and then re-evaluate.

A couple of hours later ,

Her pediatrician called and said the Radiologist had reviewed the X-ray and had decided to move her left Kidney up to a Level 4. Her Right was still at a 3.

So,

he gave us antibiotics and referred us to a Urologist who will determine whether or not she will need surgery or want to do the tests again in a few months.

I'm so nervous.

I've had such mixed emotions.

one minute I'm crying and the next I'm so grateful they caught it early.

My aunt had these same problems when she was little,

they didn't catch it in time and she lost a kidney.

I'm SO grateful they caught it early, I just really am not looking forward to hearing that she'll have to have surgery. The Dr thinks that is most likely what will happen.

How am I going to be able to let them just take my baby, sedate her and cause her pain?

I wish SO MUCH that I could do it for her.

The appointment with the Urologist isn't until October 26th either.

Which means I have almost an entire month to anticipate this.

We just started her on Antibiotics today. I hope those will help her feel better at least.

Kalista is 4 months old!

2011-09-11T10:14:00.000-07:00

It's so hard to believe that she's already 4 months old!
I've got mixed emotions here. Sometimes I just want her to stay little FOREVERR.

At 4 months old Kali:

--Loves watching T.V.

--LOVES looking at herself in the mirror

She would do it all day if I let her. at least she knows she's cute right?

--Talks and Coo's all of the time.

--Will play with some of her Toys now

-- LOVES sitting outside.

I don't know if it's the heat, the scenery, the noises, or all three. But she could also do that all day.

It's probably one of the quickest ways to get her to fall asleep too.

If we could, I wouldn't mind sitting out there all day either. :-)

--Falls asleep quicker in a mans arms than she will in a womans.

on the day of her blessing, she was really fussy and I swear everyone was taking her out.

But it was like me or my sisters.

Finally,

Tysons dad took her and walked to the back of the chapel,

within minutes she was sound asleep in his arms.

I wish SO badly we had gotten a picture. It was seriously the sweetest picture ever.

Same thing happens with my dad.

He'll hold her and she will be asleep almost immediately

It's happened more than once.

Tyson is holding her in this picture.

She had been really fussy all day and Tyson came home from work and picked her up and cuddled her on the couch.

She was asleep within minutes.

I loved how she had her hand on his. So I took a picture :)

--Has started rolling over!

She hasn't mastered it yet...but she'll do it if she's in a good mood!
(now is a good time to show you how much she spits up. In this video, you will see four spots on the sheet. This is proof that no matter how much I wash all of our stuff, they will always have spit up marks on them, because she is ALWAYS spitting up! haha )

--HATES her car seat now.

yeah. it's horrible.

She used to LOVE it, but now she'll cry every time we put her in it.

NOT FUN! haha

and Finally,

--She Loves music.

Her favorite thing you can do when you're playing with her is start singing to her.

she just stares at you and smiles.

Which...it's not common that she will stare at one thing for longer than 10 seconds!

She loves songs that have actions to them.

When we're in the car and she is crying,

if we turn up the music, 98% of the time,

she'll stop crying and end up being asleep when we get to our destination :)

My life should be a sitcom.

2011-09-03T00:57:00.000-07:00

Sometimes,

like at least once a week,

I seriosly consider calling TBS or something to see if they want to make more money.

Why you ask?

Because they would make BANK

by recording my everyday life.

haha seriously.

if it's not one thing, it's another these days.

I can't say I absolutely hate it...it does make my life quite entertaining.

I can guarantee you that the world would greatly enjoy watching my stupidity, drama and mishaps in my everyday life.

Like tonight for example.

Tyson and I were trying to think of a fun inexpensive date night.

We (as in I) came up with the brilliant idea to ride trax and frontrunner

from daybreak (which is about 5 minutes from our house),

to Farmington were my Oma is.

I needed to take care of her and I thought it would be fun and enjoyable if we just included it into our date.

haha. My Oma LOVES Tyson anyway.

So around 6:00 I started looking for a babysitter.

(yeah I'm prepared right? Already six?)

I would have planned this earlier except I've had strep throat all week and was just getting over it today.

I didn't even start feeling better until about 5:30.

Mistake #1:

I just expected my little sister to be able to babysit.

She's been able to every time so I figured it would be easy to get her.

WELL,
I called her and she said she wasn't feeling very well.

SO,

I had to find someone else.

My parents date night is friday too so they couldn't watch her.

Then,

remembering that Keltsons mom had been offering to babysit since before Kali was even born,

I gave her a call.

She willingly and generously said yes and agreed to start at 7:00.

We were late getting there and probably didn't leave until about 7:30.

Mistake #2:

we decided we would grab some quick dinner before boarding the train.

we grabbed subway..and ate it AT SUBWAY.

Mistake #3:

We didn't plan which trains we would catch at which times.

we just hopped on the first ones there.

Which resulted in my uncle having to pick us up at the frontrunner train so that we could get there before my Oma went to bed.

Mistake #4:

expecting to be to frontrunner at the minute we wanted...we weren't...and we missed the train we needed to get on in order to make it home.

SOO.

We caught the last frontrunner train at 10:45 to Salt Lake.

We caught the VERY last trax train heading south.

It stopped at Murray.

The train we needed to be on was the one just in front of the one we were on.

SO,

we got off and were stranded.

35 minutes away from my parents house,

our car,

and Kali.

We told Amara (keltsons mom) that we wouldn't be any later than 10:30...

it was now midnight.

So,

with no other option,

we had to wake my dad up,

he had to DRIVE out to Murray and pick us up and take us to our car.

Tyson and I decided to meet him at the olive garden so he wouldn't have to drive AS FAR.

So...

we're sitting in front of Olive Garden,

listening the italian music,

on the bench,

in the dark,

it's chili...and we are in summer clothes.

It was lovely.

we sat there not speaking for about 5 minutes because both of us were stressing out.

and when I stress out...I shouldn't speak.

haha.

Eventually we lightened a bit and started joking around to lighten our stress...

we talked about the wierdest things I just realized...

Anyway.

My dad (our hero of the evening)

drove us back to our car and by 12:45 we finally picked Kali up.

So let's see.

We owe Amara like our lives for dealing with our major lie of being home by 10:30. We were two hours and 15 minutes LATE,

We owe my Dad my life for dealing with me. Yeah dad, you thought you got rid of my midnight calls after I got married didn't you? THINK AGAIN! haha

and We owe my uncle for picking us up in Salt Lake

What we thought was going to be an inexpensive date,

just got a whole lot more expensive!

Note to self:

do NOT rely on a train to get you where you need to go when you haven't planned out the route.

Colic and teething. They don't mix!

2011-08-31T16:20:00.000-07:00

Remember THIS post about Kali having Colic?

and THIS one about rice cereal making her feel better?

Everything was going well,

until a couple days after feeding her cereal.

I started noticing that she was pooping hardly at all.

I also started noticing that when she DID poop, it stunk SO BAD.

I didn't even know a baby could produce something that smells so bad. (haha)

As the days went on,

her bowel movements started becoming little pebbles.

Hence,

Constipation.

The rice cereal was not helping her with the problems she already had with this.

So,

I backed up and started only giving her rice cereal at night.

It still was not making a difference,

and she began getting fussy like she was before.

Good thing I was still breastfeeding at night,

so I hadn't completely dried up.

I decided to just start breastfeeding again.

Only a bottle at night.

with no rice cereal.

Just like I was doing before.

She is still fussy.

It hasn't changed.

I would think it was my breastmilk,

but she started getting fussy before I started breastfeeding full time again.

So we are back to square one.

Along with these symptoms

She was also

Drooling,

throwing up,

congested,

and chewing on EVERYTHING she could.

I was SO SURE that she was teething.

So I called the nurse and she insisted that it was too early and that she just though it was an ear infection.

She said to come in.

Our insurance just changed and co pays are now $40 and her 4 month appointment was in two weeks.

So I asked if there was anyway we could combine those because there was NO WAY I was going to pay $80 in a month. Especially because I was still so sure she was teething and didn't think she needed to go in. I just needed to know what to give her medicine wise!

She let me combine those so we went in yesterday.

Sure enough,

SHE'S TEETHING!

Dumb nurse.

haha I gotta say she is DANG LUCKY that they let me combine the appointments.

I would have been so mad if I lost $40 for them to tell me what I already knew!

Now comes the sad part.

Because it was her 4 month appointment they had to give her shots.

again.

She was already upset and I really really didn't want them to.

I was SO CLOSE to turning them down because I didn't want her to be in anymore pain.

But I ended up giving in because they said I would have had to go back in two week.

I would rather just get it over with.

Needless to say,

when the nurse walked in,

I was already crying and she had to comfort ME!

I'm sorry but I couldn't help it. I hate seeing my baby in pain...and allowing her to be in even more pain is the hardest thing ever.

I'm not kidding when I say that that's the hardest part of being a mom.

I don't remember if I said that before,

but watching my child in pain...I would rather them give ME the dangs shots.

Anyway.

Long story short.

She did scream through the shots.

but they gave me the amount of Tylenol I needed to give her.

That has seemed to help a WHOLE BUNCH.

However,

her Colic is still really bad in the morning until she finally falls asleep for her nap.

oh man I just hope she gets over this soon.

because seeing my baby in pain is the worst kind of torture.

30 DC #30

2011-08-30T15:56:00.000-07:00

30. what changed this month and what you hope will happen next month.

Kali started teething!

I hope that she'll get her teeth next month!

and..

I'm done!

30 DC #29

2011-08-30T15:05:00.000-07:00

29. a picture of yourself.

How about a picture of all three of us instead :)

(Also a sneak peak of our recent family pictures :))

30 DC #28

2011-08-30T13:56:00.000-07:00

28. the month you were happiest this year and why.

May.

May 11th to be exact.

It was the day my perfect angel was born.

Kalista has changed my life.

She is my whole world and her father and I would do anything for her.

We worry about her constantly

because if anything happened to her we would both die.

This was the easiest question so far ;)

30 DC #27

2011-08-30T13:49:00.000-07:00

27. talk about your siblings.

I've got a lot of siblings.

It's crazy I tell you.

NO we are not polygamist.

THAT is FLDS. I am LDS.

Just in case you were wondering ;)

Let me go Oldest to Youngest.

BreeAnn

My Irish Twin ;)

She just turned 23 and her and her husband Blake moved to Texas in the beginning of August.

I miss them, but also envy them immensley...Tyson does even more.

Tyson served his mission in Texas and has wanted to live there ever since.

BreeAnn and I couldn't be more opposite.

I swear we are completely different in every way.

She has brown hair I have blonde hair.

She has brown eyes I have blue eyes.

She has tan skin I have WHITE skin.

I'm WAY OCD organized and she's more laid back and takes things as they come.

haha it's funny.
I love her and miss her.

Emilee

Woah.

Emilee is almost 20.

That's weird.

She's currently going to Utah state.

Emilee is probably the peacemaker of the family.

She was also Tysons friend before we started dating...and still even after we broke up before his mission.

That made things kinda awkward when he would come over after we broke up...

haha.

I miss her in Logan.
We will go visit her soon!
;)

Kaitlyn

Kaitlyn is a Junior in high school.

She'll be 17 in February.

She is in love with every guy that walks by and dangerously looks way too old for her age.'

Not good!

haha.

She is my babysitter and babysits Kali almost every week.

She makes it so Tyson and I can still go on our dates!

Dallin

He is 14 years old.

Will be 15 in October.

We all just discovered recently that Dallin is a huge ladies man.

Unfortunately,

the poor guy just got braces.

haha.

Hopefully that will keep the girls off of him until he's 16.

Casey

He is 9 years old

Caseys nickname is 'Dennis the Menace'.

seriously.

They are like two peas in a pod.

He is always finding a way to get in trouble.

He is a funny kid and loves being an uncle.

he has made it very clear that he wants to go by Uncle Case.

He's getting way to big.

Joey

He is 6 years old!
also getting WAY too big.

Joey is the clown of the bunch.

He makes me laugh whenever he is around.

He has also made it clear that he wants to go by Uncle Joe.

He will always be my baby brother no matter how old he gets.

If he could,

he would sit in front of the TV all day.

30 DC #26

2011-08-28T23:35:00.000-07:00

26. your religious beliefs.

I'm LDS.

:-)

30 DC #25

2011-08-28T23:32:00.000-07:00

25. ten ways to win your heart.

1. Someone that can Make me laugh

2. Sweet talkers. yes. I'm a sucker for sweet talk

3. Romance.

4. When he Randomly brings me flowers or a gift 'just because'

5. A hard worker. Hard working men turn me on ;)

6. A gentleman

7. Honesty

8. When someone is good with kids

9. Making me feel like I'm the most important person in their life.

10. A protector

sigh.

So glad I found that :)

30 DC #24

2011-08-28T23:24:00.000-07:00

24. weird things you do when you’re alone

well,

I sing super loud.

I talk in EXTREME baby talk to Kali.

(I guess that's not COMPLETELY alone. But she's a baby. haha)

Not really sure what else...

30 DC #23

2011-08-28T23:21:00.000-07:00

23. something you always think “what if..” about

Oh my gosh, everything.

it's bad.

Sometimes I wonder if I have a little bit of Anxiety.
I worry about EVERYTHING.

One thing I've been thinking about lately is,
What if...I get pregnant on the IUD?

haha.

That wouldn't bad necessarily,
as much as it would be so stressful
and
WAYY sooner than we would have liked.

30 DC #22

2011-08-27T23:14:00.000-07:00

22. ten things about you people don’t really expect.

Are you kidding me?

I'm a dang open book.

But..

I guess I'll say if you just barely met me...

1. I sing at the top of my lungs almost everyday, throughout the day.

2. I stress about stupid things. I.E. Everything.

3. I placed a little girl for adoption almost 3 years ago

4. I had an ulcer in 7th grade

5. My ulcer caused me to always have epic acid reflux.

6. I'm an Irish Twin

7. I love to find new ways to organize my things

8. I am seriously considering taking up baking/cooking as a hobby

9. I love love couponing. That IS a current hobby of mine.

10. My husband and I were high school sweethearts

30 DC #21

2011-08-27T23:07:00.000-07:00

21. something you can’t seem to get over.

My dang Heatburn/Acid reflux.

and my recent obsession with Pinterest.

I'm not kidding.
I started my account like two days ago...

and I'm already addicted.

It's so so bad.

30 DC #20

2011-08-25T10:14:00.000-07:00

20. the last argument you had.

It was with Tyson's 20 year old brother on Sunday.

ha.

It took a while for me to remember!

He was over here and it was about 9 o'clock.

Kali started getting fussy,

so I decided it was her bed time.

I brought her in her room and did the little routine.

Feed,

rock,

put to bed.

Sometimes she cries,

and other times she doesn't.

This particular night,

she cried.

Tyson's brother decided that he was going to go take her out because he hated hearing her cry.

Needless to say,

I was very against this.

Many of you mommys out there I'm sure understand

that your baby just sometimes needs to cry herself to sleep.

It's the only thing that will teach her how to go to bed.

I argued with him about it until I finally asked Tyson to tell him not to.

He listened to Tyson.

haha.

I thought it was sweet of him to not want his neice to cry,

But it's the ONLY way that she will learn.

30 DC #19

2011-08-24T23:14:00.000-07:00

19. something that never fails to make you feel better.

The first thing that came to my mind when I saw this question was

a massage.

Only because that day I got that massage was an INCREDIBELY annoying and stressful day.

I'm trying to renew my CNA license and it's the most inconvenient, frustrating thing EVER.

I found out it needed to be renewed and that I had to take the test in the beginning of July.

needless to say,

I am STILL waiting to take the test.

I gotta stop talking about it cause it makes me mad.

Anyway,

Nothing was working out that day and when I got my massage...

that all was fixed.

haha I was in a MUCH better mood for the rest of the day.

again,

Thank you Tyson. <3

Also,

another thing that can make me happy no matter what is Kali's smile.

When that girl smiles at me,

my life is put into perspective and I remember what's important in life.

I love love LOVE that girl.

30 DC #18

2011-08-24T23:10:00.000-07:00

18. disrespecting parents.

I really really don't think I get this question.

It's so dang Vague!

I'm guessing it's asking,

How I feel about people who disrespect parents?

Here's my take on that.

When you are a child all the way up until when you are married and on your own,

you should respect your parents 100%.

I know I'm guilty of not doing that throughout some of my life.

But aren't we all right?

haha

However,

Once you are an adult, married and on your own,

I think that it needs to be both ways.

You should respect your parents, but they should respect you as well.

It needs to be a different kind of relationship at that point because they no longer are paying for your life! haha

Of course you should understand everything they've done for you throughout your life, but you are also an adult. They need to understand that as well and know that in order to maintain your relationship, respect needs to go both ways!

I hear about this a lot.

and

I'm understanding it more as I get older.

Hopefully Kali and I will be able to figure this out early in our relationship!

Especially once she becomes a teenager.

30 DC #17

2011-08-24T23:04:00.000-07:00

17. things that make you scared.

Well,

I'm not sure if this wants me to name 17, or just things in general.

So,

I'll name my top five.

1. Something happening to Kalista.

2. Something Happening to Tyson. Especially while he's at work.

3. Spiders

4. my imagination when it's late at night and I'm wide awake while everyone is sleeping.

5. Noises that the house makes when I'm home alone.

30 DC #16

2011-08-24T23:00:00.000-07:00

16. three things you are proud about your personality.

This is the hardest question so far.

But here we go:

1. My OCD as far as being clean goes.

I'm not saying my house is always clean, I'm saying that when I AM cleaning, it's never clean enough for me. It's way better than my house always being a mess right?

2. I'm organized. for the most part.

3. I'm not fake. :)

30 DC #15

2011-08-24T22:55:00.000-07:00

15. the best thing to happen to you this week

Yesterday when I got the massage Tyson got me for our Anniversary.

mmm,
best massage EVER!

Seriously, she got all of the knots out of my neck.

It was an EPIC disappointment when I was told my time was up.

meh.

30 DC #14

2011-08-22T22:49:00.000-07:00

14. something disgusting you do.

first of all,

why would I do something if I thought it was disgusting??

DUHH.

I guess that when I was pregnant,

I craved chewing on a sponge ALL OF THE TIME!

It was the wierdest thing ever...

and I did finally end up doing it.

once.

towards the end of my pregnancy.

haha

30 DC #13

2011-08-22T22:45:00.000-07:00

13. a date you would love to go on.

Everything I've wanted to do on a date,

I've done with Tyson.

But,

I would LOVE to relive or anniversary.

That was SO much fun and so nice to just not have a care in the world and not be rushed or in a hurry for once!!

30 DC #12

2011-08-22T22:42:00.000-07:00

12. things you want to say to an ex.

Quite honestly,

there's not anything I want to say to any of my ex's except this:

I'm SOOO much happier without you in my life!

I don't really care about any of them.

My life is exactly how I wanted it to be and they are all OLD NEWS!

My husband

(who by the way is WAYY sexier than any of those others)

is my world now.

30 DC #11

2011-08-22T22:40:00.001-07:00

11. your current relationship, if single discuss how being single is.

Married.

That was easy.

30 DC #10

2011-08-22T13:19:00.000-07:00

10. your view on drugs and alcohol.

I strongly believe that if someone does drugs or consumes alcohol before at least age 21,

it affects their brain a whole lot more.

I heard somewhere that if affects the frontal lobe,

which affects the decision making part of your brain.

I think drugs are stupid no matter what and that people that do that are seriously screwing up the rest of their lives.

My little brothers birth mother did drugs. They took over her life which resulted in not only her getting her kids taken from her, but my brothers were affected from it forever.

Same with Tysons birth mother.

Drugs are so powerful that they can do that to someone.

What person in their right mind, would choose something over their kids?

Drugs ruin lives.

I've seen it happen to those closest to me.

As far as Alcohol goes,

I don't drink.

I never have because it's against my values.

But,

I think that as long as people that do it, do it responsibly and don't get drunk...and then DRIVE,

I'm not going to criticize them for it.

I don't do it, but as long as those that do it, don't affect others with it and don't become addicted, or take lives by drinking and driving,

then they can do what they want :)

30 DC #9

2011-08-22T13:10:00.000-07:00

9. your last kiss.

I woke up to Tyson kissing me goodbye when he left for work.

Those kisses are in my top 5 favorite kisses.

What better way to be woken up in the morning?

1st Anniversary

2011-08-21T22:04:00.000-07:00

Although it's SO crazy,

Tyson and I celebrated our 1st Anniversary this weekend!

I can't believe it's been a year,

and that we have a baby!

ha It's so weird.

It was such a great weekend.

we had so much fun and everything was perfect <3

On Friday,

after Tyson got off work,

we went to dinner.

He made reservations at The Roof a couple weeks ago.

It was SO good! That place has the best food EVER!

Especially their dessert.

and the view,

was INCREDIBLE.

I swear we got the best Table there.

We didn't know how much the place was when we went.

We figured it would be expensive,

But it was our Anniversary so Tyson said we couldn't worry about it.

Well,

it was about $15 more a person than we anticipated,

but it was worth it because it was SOO perfect and the food was SOO good!

After dinner,

we walked around Temple Square for a little bit and just talked.

I don't think the night could have gone any better.

I loved it and the weather was perfect.

It was so crazy to think that a year earlier,

we were married in that temple.

How lucky are we to be married in such a beautiful building??

We just walked around the grounds reminiscing about the pictures and things we did a year ago :)

We dropped Kali off at my parents house before we left and she was staying there until Saturday night, so we were able to go home and sleep through the ENTIRE night that night.

I don't remember sleeping so soundly in my entire life.

haha.

I actually slept through the night and I'm pretty sure I slept about 10 hours!

WOAHH.

We woke up at about 9:30.

Our plans were to go to Lagoon that day,

but we didn't want to rush.

We decided we were just going to enjoy our time and go when we were ready.

I didn't want to feel rushed.

I ALWAYS feel rushed.

I just wanted to be relaxed :)

So we laid in bed for a while and talked and then I gave Tyson his present.

I bought him a bunch of underwear because it's what he asked for. haha and then I also gave him a bluetooth.

He bought one a few months ago and he was IN LOVE with that thing.

He used it for exactly a day and while he was at work,

he went to the bathroom and took it off and then accidentally left it there and it was gone when he went back.

Needless to say,

he was super disappointed about it.

So I suprised him with a new one. He loves this one even more (thank goodness! :D)

After I gave him his,

he got up and came back with a white envelope.

When he gave it to me,

I saw that it was from massage envy.

It was for an hour and a half massage!

oh man I was so excited!

I swear he was psychic or something.

I'm not even kidding when I say that two days earlier,

I was thinking so badly that I needed a massage.

My back has been killing me!

I am so excited to use that thing I can hardly wait!

About 10 minutes after that,

we finally decided to get up and make breakfast.

So we both made it and that was so fun too!

We've never cooked together before.

I liked it :)

I made pancakes.

Regular for me, Chocolate chip for him.

and he made

Eggs, sausage and Hashbrowns.

All topped off with orange juice.

After cleaning up breakfast,

we got ready to go to lagoon and headed out.

(sorry not the best picture I know.)

We met Stefanie and her husband there and were at lagoon until about 8.

Tyson and I left for dinner and decided that we were just going to rent a movie and go home.

Stefanie and her husband had decided to leave right before that so we just decided we were tired and wanted to go home!

On the way,

we called my mom to pick up Kali and she was at my cousins wedding so we stopped there first :)

Although it was fun to have a break,
I missed her SO much and couldn't wait to see my baby.

But we wanted to watch a movie when we got home,
SO

Luckily she went right to bed when we got home so we were able to watch the movie.

It was the best anniversary ever!

Saturday was our actual Anniversary :)

I love Tyson and I'm so grateful to be married to him.

This first year has definitely been an adventure!

But I wouldn't want to go through the ups, downs, happys, and sads with anyone else.

Our year old Wedding cake.

We spit it out after this picture.
Wedding cake is so not good a year later...I don't recommend it.
ha.

I love you SOO much Tyson!!<3

30 DC #8

2011-08-19T12:29:00.000-07:00

8. something you’re currently worrying about.

Well...I guess the first thing that comes to my mind is,

Leaving Kali for a whole day and night for mine and Tyson's Anniversary.

She'll be with my parents,

but I still have never ever been away from her for so long.

MEH.

It's going to be so hard!!

New Hair

2011-08-19T00:21:00.000-07:00

After a lot of thought and frustration,

I decided to cut my hair.

I've been growing it out for a LONG time and it was starting to really drive me crazy.

I was really close to my Butt by the time I decided to cut it.

Here is the most recent picture that I could find.

I was planning on taking a picture of my hair before my appointment but I forgot.

Anyway,

I was SOO scared when I cut it off.

Seeing this

Before she even colored it freaked me out...

and then she cut off a couple more inches after that!!

I was seriously about to cry.

But when she was all done,

I actually really liked it.

It needed to be done and I know it's going to be so much easier and quicker getting ready in the mornings!

So,

here's my new hair

30 DC #7

2011-08-16T15:23:00.000-07:00

7. your opinion on cheating on people.

What kind of question is this??
Oh well let's see,
I think is so very wrong.

I think that if you really can't be in a commited relationship,
you shouldn't get married.
If you can't work it out. Like REALLY can't for some reason,
get out of the marriage BEFORE you are with other people.

At least if someone is cheating on their girlfriend,
that girl can get out of it.

Even though that's still stupid!
DUHH.

30 DC #6

2011-08-15T12:24:00.000-07:00

6. the person you like and why you like them.

Well,

I like a lot of people.

But I love Tyson.

I already gave many reasons why in #3 of this challenge.

He's my lover and my other half. :D

30 DC #5

2011-08-15T11:02:00.000-07:00

5. five things that irritate you about the opposite sex/same sex.

Same Sex:

1. I cannot stand when someone LOVES drama. seriously. A girl that is always looking for some type of drama in her life drives me crazy.

2. How Obsessed Women are with being skinny. I'm one of them and it's because the rest of the world puts such a light on it. It's because of this messed up media that makes me feel so self conscious all of the time!

3. Girls that flirt with my husband! :) haha

4. Gossip. That is the main reason I quit my job at the hospital. If someone doesn't like me, I'd prefer they tell me to my face. Yes I know that I am guilty of gossiping sometimes, but USUALLY I tell someone right to their face how I feel about them. So if I'm talking about them to someone else, it's because they already know what I think. I don't care if people talk about me, as long as they have already talked to me about it and I know how they feel. Because talking to me about it, will usually solve the problem and then they will have no reason to gossip. yeah. pretty much, I can't stand people like that and everyone that works at the hospital that does that, I know who you are so if you read my blog, don't think I can't see right through you. I would name a couple of people off, but I won't. for their sake.

5. Cliques. Why can't we all just be friend!? let's get out of high school.

Opposite Sex:

1. I'm not a fan of men who don't know how to show sympathy. If a girl is upset, comfort them. Don't just act like their being a baby. be UNDERSTANDING.

2. Men who don't know how to comfort a woman when she's sad

3. Forgetting Birthdays, Anniversaries or any other special occasion. This includes remembering the day, but failing to give them a gift that shows them that you care at all.

4. Guys that sniff and then spit their loogeys. blugh. I dry heave just thinking about it. (no I do not know how to spell loogeys. haha) even if they don't spit, that whole snorting thing disgusts me.

5. Guys that don't respect women. As in hit them, talk down to them, or act better than them.

Be a gentleman you men! Treat a woman with respect.

Yeah,

glad I married a man that either never does this stuff, or has learned from his mistakes when he has done them. Yes he's done a couple of these, but not all! haha

I love you Tyson.

30 DC #4

2011-08-15T09:00:00.000-07:00

4. what you wear to bed.

I gotta say,

I HATE taking pictures of myself.

I feel as awkward as anyone could ever possibly feel.

haha.

But if I'm not sleeping in my underwear (;))

Then I'm usually sleeping in something of this nature.

The only time I don't sleep in my underwear is if I'm already wearing this and I'm too lazy to take it off.

Like today.

Sundays, I wear this kind of stuff.

so I'm going to bed in it!

yeah.

now let's all feel awkward that I just told that world that I sleep in my underwear...haha

Camping

2011-08-14T22:09:00.000-07:00

Tysons moms side of the family planned a camping trip last week from Monday to Thursday.

Because Tyson had work and school,

we couldn't go the whole time,

but we were able to at least go up from Tuesday night until EARLY EARLY wednesday morning.

It was fun and Kali did SO good!

I think she was actually SO comfortable.

She slept well in the tent and only woke up twice to eat.

I was quite proud of her.

It was fun and I wish we could have stayed longer!

Hopefully we'll be able to next time.

Happy Baby

2011-08-13T23:50:00.000-07:00

This weekend we attended the FSA Conference.
More on that later on my Adoption Blog.

Andrea (Avery's Adoptive mom),

and I were able to spend most of the time together.

SO much fun.

I love her. She is seriously such a good friend.

On Friday we went to lunch at Chili's

and we were talking about Kali's problems with sleeping and puking.

She still wasn't sleeping through the night and I starting worrying that I was doing something wrong.
I feel like such a terrible mom when my baby doesn't seem to be progressing at all!

Then,

Andrea started telling me about things she tried with Avery.

She said that Avery would always act starving when she was done feeding her a bottle,

so she started feeding her more than what she usually did,

and she ate the whole thing and would be so much better.

I've also had some people recommend putting rice cereal in her bottle.

Andrea recommended that too.

I've been thinking about doing that for a while, but never acted on it because I've been worried that she's too young.

I feed Kali a bottle at night

and I've been doing that for a while now.

so last night, I finally decided to just try what others have been recommending for a while.

First,

I wanted to make sure she liked the cereal before I ruined a perfectly good bottle with it.

I made some,

and gave her some on a spoon.

My heavens,

it was like I couldn't give it to her fast enough.

She would take some and immediately want more and start crying because I wasn't giving it to her fast enough.

Poor girl acted like we were starving her to death!

It was then that I concluded what I've always suspected...

she is DEFINITELY her fathers daughter! Especially when it comes to eating food.

haha

So I just put it all in a bottle with formula so that she COULD get it fast enough.

But I also added two more ounces of formula.

I usually give her 2 ounces at night, but this time I gave her 4

She scarffed that sucker down!

and finished that thing way fast.

Then I gave her the Prevacid that we had prescribed for her

and burped her.

She only threw up a teeny bit!

YAY!

Then,

came the scary part.

Whenever we would put her to bed,

she would scream her head off until she fell asleep.

That is so hard for both of us.

We would take turns going in there and putting her binky in her mouth,

but it's so hard when your baby cries. seriously.

So,

I laid her in her crib and put her binky in her mouth.

She didn't make a PEEP.

She was fine and fell asleep without even crying!

I was so happy.

I was hoping it would help her sleep all the way through the night.

we got her to bed around 10:30.

She slept until...

6:30!!

Eight hours!!

I couldn't believe it.

Then all day long today she was the happiest baby on the block and hardly even cried.

I've been feeding her bottles all day because of how well it turned out last night.

and she has loved it.

The hardest part of this all is that I'm greatly greatly considering just cutting off breastfeeding completely.

That's hard for me because I really really wanted to breastfeed until she was at least six months old because,

1. because it's SOO much more convenient when we're out and about to just have it right there and not have to run and make a bottle while she's screaming her head off

and

2. It's cheaper.

I thought about maybe pumping and giving her those bottles,

but I think that would be even MORE inconvenient than making a bottle and PLUS,

I am pretty sure she is allergic to something I'm eating and quite frankly I can't figure out what!

She throws up so much less when I feed her a bottle even when it doesn't have cereal in it.

Meh.

So that's hard for me and I get a little emotional every time I think about stopping.

haha I'm pathetic.

But seriously,

I do love breastfeeding. That might sound weird but I really do.

I know some women have a hard time,

but I'm not one of them so I feel like I'm letting it all go to waste.

I'm just hoping that our next baby doesn't have such problems.

Because I think I would be able to do it for a while if they took it well.

Anyway,

enough with my rambling.

I just had to say it.

She is already SUCH a different baby and it's only been 24 hours!

I just put her to bed again and tonight went even better than last night!

She fell asleep while I was feeding her so she didn't even finish her bottle

(I hope that still means she will sleep through the night)

and she didn't wake up at all when I put her in her crib.

I almost cried of joy.

haha.

I love my baby girl so much!

I'm so glad I figured out what was wrong with her.

I don't know why it took me so long!

Of COURSE she was just still hungry.

She IS her fathers daughter.

30DC #3

2011-08-10T21:48:00.000-07:00

3. what kinda person attracts you?

My Husband.

Everything about him.

His eyes,

His hair,

His skin,

He's a priesthood holder,

His Sense of Humor,

He is such an incredibely hard worker,

His strength,

His Sexyness,

He is an incredible Father,

His Goals

Etc...

The list could go on and on but I think you get the picture.

30DC #2

2011-08-09T20:37:00.000-07:00

2. how have you changed in the past two years?

Two years ago,

I was living he College Student life.

These pictures are from the Summer of '09

These days were SO much fun.

I miss these friends.

But,

I LOVE my l.ife right now and wierdly enough,

I don't think I would go back if I had the chance.

That's crazy,

because these days were so much fun.

I got to goof off and all I really had to worry about was school work.

But my life right now is what I've always wanted.

I miss you Megan, Mandy, Keara and Elicia!!

30DC #1

2011-08-09T10:00:00.000-07:00

1. things you want to say to five different people.

Tyson

I love you SO much. I want you to know how greatful I am for a husband like you. You work SO hard for our family and it is because of you that I don't have to work full time. I barely even work part time! You are the most amazing father and husband. I know that everyone says that about their husband, but this is FOR REAL. You really are the best one. I'm so happy I married you and so lucky that you chose ME! You complete me! < 3

Kalista

Did you know that you are what I live for? I love every little thing about you. When you hurt, I hurt. When you cry, I want to cry. You are the light of mine and your daddys lives. We Thank the Lord every day for you. Even though you throw up on everyone and everything, which results in everyone and everything smelling like your puke, that is just a reminder that you are our lives! Thank you for choosing ME to be your mommy! You were more than worth the wait. (not that you took a while to come after me and your daddy got married. But I've been waiting for you since way before that!) I love you little princess!

Oma

I want you to know that even though I know you won't be here for much longer, I enjoy every minute I get to spend with you. I'm lucky to be able to spend such quality time with you three times a week. Thank you for being my Oma. I know that you can't wait to be reunited wth Opa, but for selfish reasons, I don't want you to leave. I love you!

Mom and Dad

Thank you so much for all that you do for my little family. I'm so grateful that I know I can always count on you to help us with anything. I'm so glad that Kali is going to be able to have such a good relationship with you both. Thank you for all that you do! I love you and hope you ALWAYS know that. Even during the times we don't quite see eye to eye.

Avery Leigh

I hope you know that I still think about you every single day! I want you to know how much I love you and that YOU have made me the person that I am today. If you hadn't come in to my life the way you did, I know that I wouldn't be as well off as I am now. Although placing you for adoption was the hardest thing I've ever had to do in my life, it was also the biggest blessing and life altering moment in my life. You are an angel literally sent from heaven to remind me of all of my blessings in life. I hope you know without a doubt how much I love you! Thank you for teaching me so much and for allowing me to be a part of your life

30 Day Challenge

2011-08-09T08:49:00.000-07:00

Just so you know,

this is not going to be done every day and I will most likely be doing posts in between some of them sometimes.

But this will be to help me make a post if I don't have anything else to post about.

30 Day Challenge.

1. things you want to say to five different people.

2. how have you changed in the past two years?

3. what kinda person attracts you?

4. what you wear to bed.

5. five things that irritate you about the opposite sex/same sex.

6. the person you like and why you like them.

7. your opinion on cheating on people.

8. something you’re currently worrying about.

9. your last kiss.

10. your view on drugs and alcohol.

11. your current relationship, if single discuss how being single is.

12. things you want to say to an ex.

13. a date you would love to go on.

14. something disgusting you do.

15. the best thing to happen to you this week.

16. three things you are proud about your personality.

17. things that make you scared.

18. disrespecting parents.

19. something that never fails to make you feel better.

20. the last argument you had.

21. something you can’t seem to get over.

22. ten things about you people don’t really expect.

23. something you always think “what if..” about

24. weird things you do when you’re alone.

25. ten ways to win your heart.

26. your religious beliefs.

27. talk about your siblings.

28. the month you were happiest this year and why.

29. a picture of yourself.

30. what changed this month and what you hope will happen next month.

Blessing Day!

2011-08-08T19:31:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was Kalista's blessing Day.

It was Such a good day.

She started getting fussy the second church started,

but once Tyson picked her up and walked her to the circle,

she quieted down and was good until he sat back down.

I was so glad that she behaved for at least that little part!

haha

The not so happy girl in her dress.

The only way I could get her to be happy for a picture...

was put her in her swing!

Here are a couple of pictures of her with my Oma

and my dad :)

Thanks to my cousin Monique for taking these last two pictures!

Harry Potter Freaks.

2011-08-05T09:30:00.000-07:00

Today is my older sister BreeAnns Birthday.

Unfortunately,

her and my Brother-in-Law moved to Texas a couple weeks ago.

It's been quite sad.

But because of this,

we celebrated her Birthday with her before they left.

My mom asked her what she wanted to do

well,

let's just say my sister is a freak when it comes to Harry Potter.

I'm not kidding.

So,

She told my mom that she wanted to go see Harry Potter with all of us.

and then my mom decided she would make it a party and made a Harry Potter meal as well!

The night before,

we received a text from BreeAnn saying that she was expecting us to dress for the occasion.

lovely.

We don't really have the harry potter wardrobe stuff so I Just did that best I could with what we have.

I put this picture in another post,

but this is what I put Kali in:

They're striped Tights right??

haha

Then we bought Tyson some round Harry Potter glasses,

and I just had my hair in pigtails and was going to take them out when we went to the movie, so that it would be curly like Hermoine.

My sister had something else in mind.

When we got to their house, we turned the corner,

and they were all sitting at the table in crazy people costumes!

We sat down to the following for dinner,

Ribs,

mashed potatoes,

Vegetables,

BUTTER BEER

(I don't know why, but this was the only thing I took a picture of)

Black Licorice with the tip dipped in white chocolate

(for our wands)

Homemade chocolate covered frogs

and worms

and Finally,

if any of you are Harry Potter fans,

you'll remember the cake the Hagrid made Harry in I believe it was the first book.

Well,

that was my sisters Cake.

They just Wrote Harry, then put an X through it and wrote BreeAnn underneath it.

It was a pretty cool party if I do say so myself.

Then my sister brought out a purple wig

(so that I could be Tonks)

and brought Tyson out a Tie

(so he could have more of the harry potter look)

and I was given a cape...which was the closest thing to a robe they could find.

Then,

after taking my eyeliner and making a lightning mark on Tyson and my brothers foreheads

(they were both Harry),

I decided to draw one on Kali's as well!

and you have the Harry Potter freak Family

From left to right:

Hermoine Granger (Emilee), Luna Lovegood (Kaitlyn), Lucius Malfoy (Dad), Draco Malfoy (Casey), Bellatrix (Mom), Snape (BreeAnn), Madeye Moody (Blake), Tonks (Me), Harry's Daughter (Kali), Harry Potter (Tyson), Harry Potter (Dallin)

Remind me to NEVER EVER let my hair be that short IRL.

ever.

Although I thought this was all pretty cool and creative,

BreeAnn said we all had to go see the MOVIE like this.

This was 4 days after the midnight showing.

So we had to go to the movie theater,

4 days late,

all dressed up as freaks!

To make matters worse,

no one waited for Tyson and me when we were getting our drinks.

So we were just standing there as a family and then...I SPILLED my drink all over the place!

I ended up taking that wig off and trying to disappear

(where was my invisiblity cloak?)

Anyway,

it was cool.

We went back for the cake afterwards and we decided to put Tysons glasses on Kali...

Pretty sure she played the part!

haha

House/Almost finished Nursery Pictures

2011-08-04T11:10:00.000-07:00

Okay so I took some pictures of my house!

The Nursery isn't quite finished yet,

but it's close enough.

I still need to get a curtain for her window and hopefully stain/get a matching crib.

But here we go.

Let me take you on a tour!

Let's start with the...

Living room.

This is what you see when you're standing at the front door.

(The blinds are closed because when they're open, it's so light that you can't take a picture. I LOVE how much light there is in this house)

This is our TV :)

It's like a mini theater!

Yes, Projector included and all.

Kitchen

Doors to the Balcony.

The view out there is BEAUTIFUL!

One day, I will try to take a picture.

That window is open, so sorry about the glare.

and don't mind Kali's swing just hanging out.

It was the best place to put it to keep it out of the way!

I just realized on of the cupboards are open.

So please do your best to ignore it ;)

As you can see,

I am SOO far from finished with Decorating the top of the cabinets.

If anyone has suggestions,

I'm open to them!

That door to the left leads to the Laundry room.

I didn't take a picture because it's the laundry room...haha

and I forgot.

let's turn back around and go to the..

Half Bath/Guest Bathroom

Yes, I know you all were just dying to see the toilet...

Now,

let's head downstairs...

Walking backwards...haha

Master Bedroom

Sorry about the blurry picture.

Again, it's because of the light.

Turn to your right and we have,

The bed.

Let me tell you something about this comforter.

This is an old one that I had before we got married.

We bought a new one when we moved in that was SOO cute and matched perfectly with the bed.

However,

last week Kali puked all over it.

really. It was everywhere.

So I,

being the genius that I am decided to put it in the washing machine.

Needless to say,

we no longer have that comforter.

Such a waste of money and made me sick.

Anyway, moving on.

If you turn around you will see...

My Vanity.

When we moved in,

Tyson was so excited about having two vanities

(you will see his in a bit)

He hates sharing one when we are both getting ready at once and he made it very clear that this was mine and the other one was his.

haha The only time I use his is when I'm brushing my teeth.

This is his favorite part of the house. quite frankly, I don't blame him.

Now,

turn to your right and you have...

The Closet :)

and turn back around to your left and you have the...

Full Bathroom

The bathroom has Tysons Vanity.

This bathroom can be entered through the bedroom, OR the hallway.

Now let's head on over to Kali's Nursery...

That door to the left is the storage room under the stairs.

No I didn't take a picture of that either.

I didn't forget...it's just...the storage room!

Nursery

Her Crib.

Like I said,

I need it to match her other furniture.

But we got this for FREE so I'm not going to complain :)

Turn around and you will see...

Her Closet and Bows

Opening her Closet,

You'll see how many clothes she has!

Spoiled girl.

Her Toy Box,
and Finally,

Her Bows!

As you see,

her nursery is just super super simple.

NOTHING like I had planned before,

but I'm really not about wasting money on it.

So this is good enough for me!!

That sums up the tour of our lovely home!

We love it here and feel so so SO incredibly blessed to have what we have.

Poor Baby

2011-08-01T14:45:00.000-07:00

Last week, especially the weekend,

was a hard one for our little princess.

Since Kali was about two weeks old,

she has been experiencing Acid Reflux.

She throws up constantly.

It worried me for a while that she wasn't gaining weight.

Especially because she would eat,

throw up,

and then act starving again.

She was literally eating every half hour.

As the week went on,

if she was awake,

she was crying.

I hardly got anything done all week

and began to wonder if there was something else wrong with her.

Then,

Thursday night,

she was up every half hour and super fussy.

At about 8 am,

I gave up trying to get anymore sleep and got up.

I fed her and she seemed okay after that.

She was still a little bit fussy, but nothing worse than she'd been all week.

So,

I set her in her bouncer and started doing some Zumba.

She usually loves watching me do that. I am pretty sure it's because I look like a complete moron and she enjoys laughing at me.

This time however,

was different.

She was fussing,

and about 10 minutes into it,

the crying became louder and louder until she was screaming uncontrollably.

It was the saddest cry ever.

I gave up working out and picked her up to try to make her feel better.

It didn't help.

It didn't matter what I did.

I rocked her, bounced her, cuddled her, burped her,

NOTHING.

She was so so upset.

I started to worry a little and after two hours of this,

I called the Dr.

When they heard her crying they told me I needed to come in.

Okay,

I have been to the Doctor so much for her lately and they keep saying that it's just her acid reflux.

So I waste the $20 every visit to just hear them say there is nothing we can do.

But with the way she was crying,

I was really worried that something else was wrong.

Seriously. She went from this adorableness....

and adorable personality,

To uncontrollable crying.

So I packed her in her carseat and went to the Dr.

By the time we got there, she had fallen asleep.

I'm sure from pure exhaustion.

When we got in to the room,

they wanted to weigh her so of course I had to wake her up for that.

Within 30 seconds of waking up,

she was screaming her head off again.

I was pleasantly suprised to find out that she was now 9 pounds 11 ounces.

She has gained almost a pound in less than a month.

That made me feel better about her at least keeping some of her food down.

But it didn't change the fact that she was still obviously in a lot of pain.

After being there for a couple of minutes,

the Dr. Said that it sounded like she had

Pyloric Stenosis.

He said that it's when the muscle in the stomach,

The Pyloris Spinchter,

stays contracted and causes the child to not keep anything down,

to be in a lot of pain,

and throw up a lot.

He sent us to primary childrens so she could have an ultrasound.

I was so relieved.

I felt like we had finally figured out what was wrong with my poor baby.

I felt like we had finally figured out how to make her feel better.

To Fix this problem means surgery.

That would've been hard,

but if it meant Kalista feeling better,

then that's what would have to be done.

When we got there,

they did the ultrasound and

everything was normal.

It wasn't Pyloric Stenosis.

The only good thing about this was that she wasn't going to need surgery.

But that was it.

We still didn't know what it was.

Kali was STILL screaming at this point.

she was still so upset.

SO,

They sent us to the ER.

2 Hours and $170 later,

they concluded that she is just Colicky and her Acid Reflux is really bad.

I don't like that result.

You know why?

Because there is NOTHING we can do to fix it.

Kali just has to sit there and be in pain and there is nothing I can do to get rid of it.

She finally calmed down by around 2:30.

and fell asleep for a while.

When she woke up from that nap...

she was all of the sudden happy again!

(for about a half hour)

Honestly,

the worst thing ever is seeing your child in pain and knowing there is nothing you can do to make them feel better.

We were given Medicine for the reflux,

but it doesn't seem to help.

I've had a few friends offer some tips,

so I'm going to try those and hope they work.

I'm okay not getting sleep.

I planned on that because obviously that comes with having a baby.

I don't care about that.

But I do care about the way she feels.

and she has obviously been in pain!

I bought some Enfamil that was made specifically for spit up.

I gave her some right before we put her to bed,

and kept her sitting up and forward for about 15 minutes...

and this was the result...

She slept for 7 hours.

SEVEN!

That is the longest she has slept since she's been born.

I was SO glad that we found something that helped get her to sleep...

at night.

(at least it's helped the last two nights)

I am still breastfeeding and I only give her formula at night.

I do NOT want to stop breastfeeding.

I really don't.

So we have been trying some other ways of calming her down during the day.

So far,

We've found two things.

Her Car seat,

as long as she is moving in it.

Like being in the car. That usually helps.

Or,

This little contraption...

This thing puts her to sleep in five minutes.

Which is understandable.
She's upright so the acid isn't as bad.

I want my poor baby to start feeling better!!

10,9,8,7,6,5,4,3,2,1 :)

2011-07-27T23:48:00.000-07:00

ten. Favorite Places to be.
in no particular order...
1. in bed, sleeping, while cuddling up with my sexy husband and beautiful daughter

2. at home, playing with my baby and hubby

3. on a date with Tyson, anywhere, just with him on a date

4. Lagoon or some kind of theme park
5. Swimming

6. out with friends

7. somewhere with an ocean

8. Visiting and playing with Dustin, Andrea and Avery

9. Dancing

10. Shopping for Kalista

nine. Weird things about me

1. I love to take baths

2. I have extreme insomnia. So while my baby is sound alseep (like right now), I'm wide awake with 100000 things going through my head.

3. I'm SUPER cheap and usually won't by something unless it is on sale or I get some kind of deal on it.

4. I hate clothes shopping for myself [when i'm purchasing it..] and will make up any excuse I possibly can to avoid it

5. I am wayyyy too OCD about some things, especially when it comes to my house and organization.

6. I have to run and jump when I'm getting on a bed that someone could fit under...(ever seen "The Sixth Sense"??)

7. For some reason, when I was pregnant with Kali, I craved, more than anything else, chewing on a sponge. There were times that my mouth would water just thinking about it. (SOOO gross. I don't know where the heck that came from)

8. I'm an Irish twin. :)

9. I HATE driving my car. Not because I hate driving, but because it makes me sick to think about how many miles I'm putting on it.

eight. Things I am going to do this summer

1. SWIM
2. Lagoon
3. boating (at least I really really really really want to)
4. Taylor Swift Concert with my good pal, Stefanie
5. Get a tan!
6. Figure out how to get rid of Kalista's Acid Reflux!
7. Get my hair done (seriously thinking about cutting it off. I know a lot of new moms do it, but it's starting to BUGG ME)
8. Lose at least 10 pounds

seven. Things I am thinking of.

1. My husband <3 I miss him. I'm at my Oma's taking care of her tonight, so Kali and I don't get to sleep with him tonight.
2. Kalista Jean
3. The creepy movie that is on the T.V. right now. Not sure what it is.
4. Breastfeeding
5. water. I'm THIRSTY
6. How I am really really really tired, but can't sleep
7. my oma

six. Things I am wearing.

1. light pink, capri pajamas
2. coast guard t-shirt
3. elastic around my wrist
4. nail polish
5. My wedding ring
6. my undergarments :)

five. Things I am worried about

1. how much sleep I'll get tonight
2. my Oma
3. Kali. I really want her to start feeling better
4. passing the CNA test I have to retake because my license has expired.
5. and, of course, MONEY

four. Things on my floor
well, I'm not home and the floor here is not technically MY FLOOR. So let me think about home...
1. Kali's bouncer
2. *sniff* a trail of partly used laundry detergent left by the comforter that my washer destroyed...that I didn't have a chance to clean up before having to come to Oma's *sniff*
3. my breast pump
4. pillows

three. Things I want to do today

1. Get some sleep since it's 12:30 am
2. Clean my house
3. Go to Target

two. Things I will reveal

1. I am constantly worrying about whether or not I'm a good mom and if I am really doing everything right for Kali
2. I HATE unsolicited advice

one. A Secret

1. Okay, I just barely started admitting this to myself, so this is kinda huge that I'm putting it on here for the world to see: There are a LOT of things I hate about myself. I mean I know they say, "you're your own worst critic", but really, there are not many things I can think of that I do like about myself. I have been working really really hard, especially since I've been married to change who I am, but sometimes I just think "If I was someone else and I met me, I wouldn't like me" I just feel like I always come off as either grumpy, or that I think I'm better than everyone else. I am neither of those things, but it has come to my attention that it's the way I come across to people.

I also hate how I can never explain my feelings to people. Like, I can write my feelings down and everything makes sense in my head, but when it comes to talking about something that I'm upset about, I can't. It always ends up in a huge arguement. Not necessarily with Tyson, I think we are starting to communicate really well, but with other people around me. Particularly my extended family.

We've been trying a lot harder to include the Gospel in our lives more than we have been and I feel like that is helping a lot. But I just feel very misunderstood sometimes. I feel like lately I have burned many bridges and I don't even know why. i.e. EVERYONE I worked with at my job at IMC. I'm SOOOO GLAD I don't work there anymore because everyone. seriously like, 90% of the people there hate my guts. I strongly believe that a lot of the people there are rude, judgemental and insensitive, but besides that, I just feel like I'm sometimes really annoying.

THANK HEAVEN for Tyson. He talks to me about all of this stuff and even helps me figure out how to fix them. Although I have a long long way to go, I think Tyson is ultimately the one that has helped me get as far as I have. I love him SO SO MUCH!

WOAH that was a long answer to #1.

haha.

Anyway.

Maybe I'll be able to sleep now since I've been staring at the computer for the last 20 minutes.

CROSS YOUR FINGERS!! :)

3 Months old

2011-07-27T16:47:00.000-07:00

I am stealing this idea from Shawntae.

Every month she documents her adorable little guys likes, dislikes and accomplishments.

I'm starting it a little late,

but it's better late than never right??

Kalista is 3 months old!
(well, she's 11 weeks...but considering my busy schedule lately, I'm posting this now since I don't know what my week will be like next week!)

Can you believe it? I can't even believe it.

I feel like time has gone by 1000 times faster than it did when I was pregnant with her.

At three months old Kali,

Loves to talk and is constantly trying to have a conversation with you,

Is a huge morning person; it's her happiest time of day,

Is a very light sleeper and wakes up to the slightest sounds,
sleeps best when it is completely silent,

Her smile is by far the cutest thing you'll ever lay your eyes on,

loves to eat and would eat all day long if you let her,

Loves to be in the car and her carseat,

Is a very curious baby. When she is awake, she is constantly looking around and needs a change of scenery after a while,

Loves to be held,

Loves her daddy and wants nothing to do with mommy when he comes home from work,
Loves water, including swimming pools

It doesn't matter how upset she is, a bath always calms her down,
Loves being bounced. Pretty sure it helps her acid reflux which is SO BAD as of late.
has a love-hate relationship with her binky

I LOVE LOVE LOVE my little Kalista.

She seriously completes my life.

I don't know what I would do without her.

Anyway,

at her 2 month Dr appointment,

she weighed 8 pounds 14 ounces

and

was 22 inches long.

So,

I'm guessing she's in the 9 pound area now!

We love this little girl!